January 31st 2008 2:06 pm
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I know Mom is still very sad. Sometimes, I try to initiate play with her & she tells me she loves me & strokes me but doesn't play. Other times, she will for a while but not long. I'm a good kitty really even if I'm not sad about Morgana not being here like Mom is. And Mom's good too. She understands how I feel. Morgana & I were siblings all her life & all of mine except for the first year. But our personalities were very different. We hung around each other a lot but never really played. I'm a big boy kitty who likes to think I'm tough (Mom says I'm really a wussy & I know that too). Morgana was the tiniest little girl kitty but she really was tough! Thing is, she never played tough. She wasn't like that. She only acted tough when she thought her family was being threatened.
I'm scared of loud noises, thunderstorms, earthquakes (we had a tiny one & boy, was I scared!!), dogs, anyone I don't know, & all sorts of other things. The only thing I'm not scared of is other strange cats. After all, I need to protect my property from other kitties peeing on Mom's plants. Morgana was scared of nothing. She'd lift her head when she heard loud or strange noises & if it happened again, she'd go to investigate. Me? Heck, I'd hide under the quilt hanging over the edge of the bed. Silly Morgana - doesn't she know kitties survive longer by hiding from danger, not tackling it?
But I still miss her in my own Mozza-way. She was so good about letting me know if Mom had a treat. She'd always meow in a certain excited way & I'd come running for my share. And we had lots of fun watching squirrels & birds on our deck. We'd both chatter excitedly at them. I still check out spots that she liked to lay on to see if I can smell her & find her. But her smell gets fainter over time. I guess she really is gone. With Morgana gone, it's not quite as exciting now, especially since Mom isn't full of fun like she normally is. I'm hoping she'll get back to it soon.
Meanwhile, Erin (that's Mom's oldest son she shares a home with) has been real good to me. He always is. He's much bigger than Mom so when he picks me up to carry me around & play with me, I fit in his arms better. Mom isn't big enough & I get squirmy in her arms since I hang out the sides.
Still, I keep Mom company all the time except when I'm napping. I like sleeping on the bed best of all so I go there for my naps. I really love it if Mom gets sleepy during the day & takes a nap with me. I turn into a purring, kneading love-monster then. I've been like that at bedtime since I was a tiny kitten. Mom said I was so small back then, I'd stand on my back feet, try to reach across her neck & not even be able to reach the other side of the pillow! Can you imagine? I'm SO much bigger now.
Mom told me she won't get another kitty. She said that I will be her focus now & she will do all she can to keep me healthy & with her for a long time. I hope I do. She reads & reads, trying to figure out more about Morgana's cancer. She said she doesn't want anything like that to sneak up on her again without her seeing it come. My last vet visit was A-OK & I hope it stays that way. Mom checks for early kidney trouble & anything else that can be checked for but she said some things are impossible to see coming. So far, I'm doing very good. My vet thought I was only 7 when he checked me!! Yet, I'm almost 15. Pretty good, huh? Even my teeth are nice & clean. My secret to good teeth & no hairballs ever coughed up? Eat your raw veggies, kitties. Yep, raw green beans are my favourite. But I like some other raw veggies too. Even the vet said they've done me a lot of good.
Anyway, you don't want me to blither on forever I'm sure so I'll stop now & write again when & if something comes up. For now, winter days are almost always the same. Can't wait for spring to go out in the garden with Mom again. Bye everyone & make sure you give LOTS of lovies to your mom & dad. They love you lots in return.
January 26th 2008 11:53 pm
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Since Morgana's gone, Mom has been so sad. I don't hear her singing like she usually does & her face hasn't had a smile on it since Morgana left on Thursday evening. I can tell she feels awful so I've been doing my best to comfort her.
While Morgana & I were never really friends, we grew up together & well... it just feels strange she's gone. She always left me a tiny bit of food in her bowl for me after she'd eat. I'd sit politely near by & when she walked away, I'd lick it out clean. But after I eat my meal, I look around for her & her bowl & they're no where to be seen. At night, I expect her to join us on the bed like she always did but she doesn't come.
I know she's really gone 'cause Mom put her on a blanket on our bed when she brought her home & I sniffed her carefully. I kept waiting for her to move but she didn't. I watched & watched but nothing changed. She smelled different too so I know something is wrong. Mom told me a few times that she's really gone but it's hard for me to understand really.
Still, I sense Mom needs comfort. I haven't played with her in my normal rambunctious ways but instead, I've been very quiet & very good. I climb on her lap a lot & at night, I snuggle up real close to her chest. Mom says my deep purring is comforting to her. I'm purring louder than normal & not because Morgana's gone. I just know Mom needs this now. She told me I'm good therapy for her. I hope so. She's been so good to us kitties that I'd like to show her I appreciate all her love for us.
December 26th 2007 8:06 pm
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Mom never made the roast pork for us yesterday as our power kept going out. But we got our very own roasted piggy tonight! Sorry to say, but I made a piggy of myself & up came my supper. Mom's careful not to feed me too much at one time as she says I would beat all previous world records (if there are any) for fastest eater on the planet. Honestly, I DO chew my food but Mom says it looks like I just inhale it - it disappears so fast. Can I help it if I love the taste of food?
Even though Mom didn't give me too much, I guess I ate it too fast. Well, it sure tasted good going down but not so great coming up again. Still, I kept it down for 2 hours! Not bad, huh? Mom says I'm probably going to be specially hungry soon. When she was sure nothing else was coming up, she offered me a little bit of our leftover pork. My tummy felt fine after it emptied, thank you, so I took her offering. I wanted more but she said that was all for now. Gee, Mom - I heard the Romans ate like that all the time & they did okay, didn't they? But she said I just have to wait. Mmm, I just love piggies. Not sure what they look like but if they look as good as they taste, they must be the most boo-tiful animal in the world!