♥ ♥ SOME BROKEN HEARTS NEVER HEAL ♥ - ♥

I HAVE BEEN UNABLE AND UNWILLING TO SPEAK OF THIS BECAUSE THE PAIN IS JUST TOO TERRIBLE...BUT I REALIZED IT IS TIME, IF ONLY TO FIND A TINY MORSEL OF CLOSURE.

I LOST MY PRECIOUS KIRBY SEPTEMBER 3RD, 2008 TO CANCER...AFTER A TREMENDOUSLY VALIANT FIGHT. KIRBY FOUGHT TO THE VERY LAST MOMENT AND HE YEARNED AND STROVE AND STRUGGLED AND REBELLED AGAINST DEATH.
KIRBY ATE LIFE...HE LOVED LIFE AND SQUEEZED EVERY DROP OUT OF EVERY MINUTE OF IT AS LONG AS I KNEW HIM. I HAVE NEVER MET ANYONE SO EXTRAORDINARY OR WITH SUCH A ZEST, A LUST AND JOY FOR LIVING.EVERY SINGLE THING WAS AN ADVENTURE TO KIRBY! HE LOVED EVERYONE, HE HAD A SPECTACULAR SENSE OF HUMOUR AND COMMUNICATED WITH US ALL WITHOUT NEEDING WORDS.
HIS BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT SHONE FORTH LIKE AN AURA AND HIS KIND HEART MADE EVERYONE LOVE HIM. ONE LOOK INTO KIRBY'S EYES AND YOU COULD SEE THE BEAUTY EMANATE FROM WITHIN HIM. KIRBY WANTED EVERYONE TO BE HAPPY AND IF HE SAW ANY SADNESS OR FELT SOMETHING WAS WRONG HE IMMEDIATELY WENT TO THAT PERSON TO BRING THEM LIGHT AND LOVE AND JOY. HE ALWAYS SUCCEEDED.
THROUGHOUT HIS LIFE, KIRBY WAS AMAZINGLY SPIRITUAL AS WELL....I WAS COMPLETELY AWESTRUCK THAT EACH TIME I BEGAN TO PRAY, NO MATTER WHERE I WAS, KIRBY KNEW! HE WOULD SUDDENLY APPEAR AND SIT BESIDE ME WITH HIS HEAD ON HIS PAWS, QUIETLY SHARING AND VERY RESPECTFUL AND INTENSE. WHAT GREAT COMFORT IT GIVES ME TO KNOW WITH CERTAINTY THAT KIRBY KNEW GOD.

IF EVER ANYONE DESERVED A MIRACULOUS HEALING, IT WAS KIRBY.
I HAVE HAD TO STOP ASKING WHY HE WAS TAKEN, I HAVE HAD TO COME TO SOME DEGREE OF ACCEPTANCE BECAUSE I WAS LOSING MY MIND OVER ALL THE QUESTIONS THAT HAD NO ANSWERS, MY FAITH WAS SORELY CHALLENGED AND IT HAS BEEN A VERY LONG PAINFUL JOURNEY. MY BROKEN HEART WILL NEVER MEND.
IN MY GRIEF I REALIZED THAT KODY WAS SURELY SUFFERING AS WELL...HE HAD LOST HIS BROTHER AND BEST BUDDY AND I'M NOT CERTAIN HE UNDERSTANDS WHERE KIRBY HAS GONE, ALTHOUGH KODY HAD A DEFINITE AWARENESS THAT SOMETHING TERRIBLE WAS HAPPENING THE DAY THAT KIRBY DIED AND KODY STAYED HIDDEN UNTIL LATE THAT DAY. HE WAS VERY SUBDUED AND KEPT A LOW PROFILE. I WAS GRATEFUL TO HAVE MY KODY TO CLING TO AND WE BOTH NEEDED ONE ANOTHER. KODY HAS ACCEPTED THINGS AND IT CHANGED HIM IN MANY WAYS. I NOTICED SO MANY BEHAVIOURAL CHANGES IN HIM...AS THOUGH HE FELT HE HAD TO TRY TO SOMEHOW TAKE KIRBY'S PLACE IN WAYS. HE BEGAN TO DO SOME OF THE THINGS KIRBY USED TO DO. IT SADDENED ME FOR I FEARED HE THOUGHT WE EXPECTED IT OF HIM. HE MATURED BUT HAS REMAINED VERY INSECURE AND HAS ALWAYS BEEN SO. HE MISSES KIRBY AND MISSES THEIR PLAY AND COMPANIONSHIP. NO OTHER BUT KIRBY COULD EVER HAVE WON KODY OVER . KODY WAS CONSIDERED "UNADOPTABLE" BY THE SHELTER BECAUSE HE WAS SO FREAKED OUT BY EVERYTHING BUT WE JUST LOVED HIM WITH LOTS OF PATIENCE AND KIRBY DID ALL THE REST. HE WAS TRULY EXTRAORDINARY IN EVERY WAY AND THAT IS ALWAYS ONE OF THE FIRST WORDS I THINK OF WHEN I THINK OF KIRBY. AND LOVE. AND THAT MAYBE HE WAS AN ANGEL BROUGHT HERE TO GIVE MEANING AND JOY TO OUR LIVES.
HIS TIME WITH US WAS OH SO BRIEF...TOO TOO BRIEF FOR HE WAS ONLY 7, YET I CHERISH EVERY MOMENT HIS BRIGHT LIGHT SHINED UPON US.
♥ OH MY PRECIOUS PRECIOUS KIRBY ♥