♥ ♥ SOME BROKEN HEARTS NEVER HEAL ♥ - ♥

I HAVE BEEN UNABLE AND UNWILLING TO SPEAK OF THIS BECAUSE THE PAIN IS JUST TOO TERRIBLE...BUT I REALIZED IT IS TIME, IF ONLY TO FIND A TINY MORSEL OF CLOSURE.

I LOST MY PRECIOUS KIRBY SEPTEMBER 3RD, 2008 TO CANCER...AFTER A TREMENDOUSLY VALIANT FIGHT. KIRBY FOUGHT TO THE VERY LAST MOMENT AND HE YEARNED AND STROVE AND STRUGGLED AND REBELLED AGAINST DEATH.
KIRBY ATE LIFE...HE LOVED LIFE AND SQUEEZED EVERY DROP OUT OF EVERY MINUTE OF IT AS LONG AS I KNEW HIM. I HAVE NEVER MET ANYONE SO EXTRAORDINARY OR WITH SUCH A ZEST, A LUST AND JOY FOR LIVING.EVERY SINGLE THING WAS AN ADVENTURE TO KIRBY! HE LOVED EVERYONE, HE HAD A SPECTACULAR SENSE OF HUMOUR AND COMMUNICATED WITH US ALL WITHOUT NEEDING WORDS.
HIS BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT SHONE FORTH LIKE AN AURA AND HIS KIND HEART MADE EVERYONE LOVE HIM. ONE LOOK INTO KIRBY'S EYES AND YOU COULD SEE THE BEAUTY EMANATE FROM WITHIN HIM. KIRBY WANTED EVERYONE TO BE HAPPY AND IF HE SAW ANY SADNESS OR FELT SOMETHING WAS WRONG HE IMMEDIATELY WENT TO THAT PERSON TO BRING THEM LIGHT AND LOVE AND JOY. HE ALWAYS SUCCEEDED.
THROUGHOUT HIS LIFE, KIRBY WAS AMAZINGLY SPIRITUAL AS WELL....I WAS COMPLETELY AWESTRUCK THAT EACH TIME I BEGAN TO PRAY, NO MATTER WHERE I WAS, KIRBY KNEW! HE WOULD SUDDENLY APPEAR AND SIT BESIDE ME WITH HIS HEAD ON HIS PAWS, QUIETLY SHARING AND VERY RESPECTFUL AND INTENSE. WHAT GREAT COMFORT IT GIVES ME TO KNOW WITH CERTAINTY THAT KIRBY KNEW GOD.

IF EVER ANYONE DESERVED A MIRACULOUS HEALING, IT WAS KIRBY.
I HAVE HAD TO STOP ASKING WHY HE WAS TAKEN, I HAVE HAD TO COME TO SOME DEGREE OF ACCEPTANCE BECAUSE I WAS LOSING MY MIND OVER ALL THE QUESTIONS THAT HAD NO ANSWERS, MY FAITH WAS SORELY CHALLENGED AND IT HAS BEEN A VERY LONG PAINFUL JOURNEY. MY BROKEN HEART WILL NEVER MEND.
IN MY GRIEF I REALIZED THAT KODY WAS SURELY SUFFERING AS WELL...HE HAD LOST HIS BROTHER AND BEST BUDDY AND I'M NOT CERTAIN HE UNDERSTANDS WHERE KIRBY HAS GONE, ALTHOUGH KODY HAD A DEFINITE AWARENESS THAT SOMETHING TERRIBLE WAS HAPPENING THE DAY THAT KIRBY DIED AND KODY STAYED HIDDEN UNTIL LATE THAT DAY. HE WAS VERY SUBDUED AND KEPT A LOW PROFILE. I WAS GRATEFUL TO HAVE MY KODY TO CLING TO AND WE BOTH NEEDED ONE ANOTHER. KODY HAS ACCEPTED THINGS AND IT CHANGED HIM IN MANY WAYS. I NOTICED SO MANY BEHAVIOURAL CHANGES IN HIM...AS THOUGH HE FELT HE HAD TO TRY TO SOMEHOW TAKE KIRBY'S PLACE IN WAYS. HE BEGAN TO DO SOME OF THE THINGS KIRBY USED TO DO. IT SADDENED ME FOR I FEARED HE THOUGHT WE EXPECTED IT OF HIM. HE MATURED BUT HAS REMAINED VERY INSECURE AND HAS ALWAYS BEEN SO. HE MISSES KIRBY AND MISSES THEIR PLAY AND COMPANIONSHIP. NO OTHER BUT KIRBY COULD EVER HAVE WON KODY OVER . KODY WAS CONSIDERED "UNADOPTABLE" BY THE SHELTER BECAUSE HE WAS SO FREAKED OUT BY EVERYTHING BUT WE JUST LOVED HIM WITH LOTS OF PATIENCE AND KIRBY DID ALL THE REST. HE WAS TRULY EXTRAORDINARY IN EVERY WAY AND THAT IS ALWAYS ONE OF THE FIRST WORDS I THINK OF WHEN I THINK OF KIRBY. AND LOVE. AND THAT MAYBE HE WAS AN ANGEL BROUGHT HERE TO GIVE MEANING AND JOY TO OUR LIVES.
HIS TIME WITH US WAS OH SO BRIEF...TOO TOO BRIEF FOR HE WAS ONLY 7, YET I CHERISH EVERY MOMENT HIS BRIGHT LIGHT SHINED UPON US.
♥ OH MY PRECIOUS PRECIOUS KIRBY ♥

~ ♥ HAVVA ROCKIN' 4TH BUDDIES!!! ♥ ~

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H APPY INDEPENDENCE DAY TO ALL MY CATSTER & DOGSTER PALS & FAMILIES!!!!!!! HAVE A SAFE, FUN, PAWSOME HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!! I LOOOOVE FIREWORKS & MOMMY & DAD ARE GONNA PUT ON A SHOW FUR ME!!!! WOO HOO!!!!!! KODY N ME GET OUR NEW TOYS & REMOTE CONTROL MOUSIE TOO!!! I CAN HARDLY WAIT!!! HAVVA WAY KEWL DAY DUDETTES & DUDES!!!!
HUGS & HEADBUTTS FROM...
YOUR BUDDY ♥ KIRBY & MY BRO, ♥ KODY & ♥ THE FANG GANG -KEETAH, ABBY, BAILEY, CIMARRON, COQUETTE, ANGUS & REMINGTON! ♥
(AND MOMMY & DADDY TOO!) MOL!!!!
ROCK AND ROLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!
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~THE A.C.'S COMIN'!! YAAAY!!!~

DADDY'S PUTTIN' THE A.C. IN TONIGHT! I LOOOVE THE A.C.! I LIKE TO HAVE COOL AIR BLOWIN' ON ME AND I SLEEP SO GOOD THEN! I DON'T LIKE IT HOT & IT'S BEEN PRETTY HOT & MUGGY. DADDY SAID HE WILL PUT MY CHAIR NEAR IT AND I WILL BE ONE HAPPY DUDE TONIGHT! MOL!! I CAN HARDLY WAIT FOR THE 4TH OF JULY! I LOVE WATCHIN' FIREWORKS! MOMMY & DADDY TAKE ME TO THE BIG PARK WHERE THEY HAVE A BIG FIREWORKS DISPLAY AND WE WATCH FROM IN OUR CAR AND I JUST WANNA RUN OUT AND CHASE THEM BRIGHT LIGHTS! IT'S WAAAY KEWL!!!!!

~♥ THANK YOU FUR ALL THE BERFDAY WISHES!! ♥ ~

I HAD A GRRREAT 7TH BERFDAY! I GOT SO MANY KEWL TOYS...I GOT A FISHIN POLE, A BUNCHA MICE, 2 BAGS OF ORGANIC CATNIPPAGE, A BUNCHA BALLS, A FUZZY BLUE DOGGY, AND MY FAVORITE THING I GOT WAS A PURPLE COW! MOL! KODY & MOMMY & DAD & ME PARTIED AND THEN WE GOT SALMON AND TEMPTATIONS! I ATE LIKE A PIGGY AND PASSED OUT COLD FUR A LONG NAP AFTERWARDS! BERFDAYS ROCK! MOMMY SAID KODY'S BERFDAY'S COMIN' UP JUNE 2ND AND WE'LL GET LOTSA TOYS THEN TOO!! WOO HOO! MOLOL! THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR AWESOME BERFDAY WISHES & CARDS!!!
LUV N HUGZ N PURRRS
♥ KIRBY ♥

~I GOTTA TOOFACHE!~

MY TOOF HURTS...IT HURT SOME OTHER TIMES BUT THEN IT WOULD GET BETTER. THE OTHER DAY I WAS MUNCHING SOME TEMPTATIONS AND I SHOOK MY HEAD & KEPT TILTING IT SIDEWAYS AND CALLED FOR MOMMY AND SHE JUST CRIED! SHE KNEW WHICH ONE HURTED ME AND SAID SHE NEVER WANTS ME TO GO THRU WHAT SHE'S BEEN THRU WITH HER OWN TEEFS AND LONG AGO HER DOGGY PATCHES HAD LOTS OF BAD TEEFS AND HAD TO HAVE SURGERIES AND LOTS PULLED. MOMMY & DADDY GOTTED ME A WHOLE BUNCH OF SOFTER FOODS AND MOMMY'S TRYING TO FIND OUT IF THERE'S ANYONE AROUND WHO COULD FIX MY TOOTH INSTEAD OF PULL IT. MOMMY'S REALLY R E A L L Y MAD CUZ THERE'S NO FUR KID DENTISTS AROUND HERE! SHE SAID WHY THE &^%!! SHOULD MY BABY"S SUFFER AND HAFTA HAVE A TOOTH PULLED JUST CUZ IT HAS A CAVITY! IT'S AN OUTRAGE!!!! I HAVE A FEELING I'M GONNA BE GOING TO SEE THE DOC PURTY SOON....I'M SCARED! MOMMY'S JUST AS SCARED FOR ME TOO! MOMMY SAID SHE'S GONNA TRY REALLY HARD TO FIND AN ALTERNATIVE, OH BOY IF ONLY SHE COULD FIND A KITTY DENTIST!!!!!

~BRUSHING & BRIBERY: HOW FAR WILL IT GO?!~

MOMMY HAS TRIED FUR YEARS TO GET ME TO LET HER BRUSH ME...BUT I WALK AWAY! SO....MOMMY HAS TRIED A NEW APPROACH...SHE BRIBES ME WITH CATNIP AND GETS ME H I G H ON IT AND AFTER I'M MELLLLLLOW, SHE BEGINS MASSAGING ME, THEN STARTS BRUSHING! DAY #1, I LET HER BRUSH ME FOR NEARLY 10 MINUTES! YOU WOULD NOT BELIEEEEEVE ALL THE HAIR WE HAD IN A BALL FROM THAT BRUSH!
DAY #2, MOMMY RAN THE BRUSH THRU ME FOR MAYBE ONE MINUTE BEFORE I LEFT.
DAY #3, (TODAY), LESS THAN 2 MINUTES AND I HAD HAD ENOUGH.
MOMMY SAYS NEXT TIME SHE WILL ADD TREATS AS A REWARD....BUT I WILL NEVER BE PREDICTABLE FROM ONE TIME TO THE NEXT SO SHE MIGHT AS WELL FORGET THINKING I WILL! MOLOLOL!
I HAVE A MIND OF MY OWN! MOL! MOMMY HAS ALWAYS USED THE STICKY ROLLER ON ME CUZ I LOOOVE IT BUT IT DOESN'T GET ALL MY LOOSE HAIR & DANDERS OFF OF ME AND MOMMY KEEPS TELLIN' ME THAT BRUSHING WILL RELAX ME, MAKE ME FEEL GOOD, LET MY SKIN BREATHE, COOL ME DOWN, ETC.
SHE CAN JUST KEEP ON WITH THE BRIBES....MAYBE I'LL WIND UP WITH A NEW GIANT CLIMBING TREE IF I PLAY MY CARDS RIGHT! MOLOLOLOL!!
HAVVA GREAT DAY CATSTER & DOGSTER BUDS!
HEADBUTTS!
KIRBY

P.S. Always hold out for the highest bid! Mololol!!!!

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~OUR FRIEND ♥ SHELBY ♥ HAS PASSED AWAY~

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OUR ♥ HEARTS ♥ ARE BROKEN
AND WE'VE SPENT ALL DAY
CRYING HUDDLED TOGETHER.
WE NEVER MET ANYONE LIKE
SWEET_SHELBY!
...COURAGEOUS,
KIND,
UNCOMPLAINING,
TRUSTING,
TRUE-BLUE.
THE WORLD WILL NEVER
BE THE SAME WITHOUT
SHELBY'S BRIGHT LIGHT.
♥ REST IN PEACE SWEET_SHELBY_PRECIOUS_FRIEND! ♥
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~TEE HEE!!!~

MOLOLOLOLOL MOMMY THINKS SHE HID OUR PRESENTS SO GOOD....NOT!! MOLOLOL! I FOUND SOME STUFF, JUST LIKE LAST YEAR AND MOMMY'S GONNA FREAK WHEN SHE SEE'S ALL THE STUFF I OPENED! MOLOLOLOL! PAPER'S FUN FUN FUN TO TEAR AND RIBBONS ARE KEWLLL TO UNRAVEL! MOLOLOL! I CAN'T WAIT TIL IT'S TIME FOR SANTA CLAWS TO COME!!!!!!!!!!

~I'M MADDDD!~

MY BROTHER KODY STILL JUST KEEPS HARRASSING ME CONSTANTLY!!!! HE'S SO JEALOUS! EVERY TIME MOMMY CATCHES HIM & MAKES HIM STOP IT HE JUST GETS MORE SNEAKY! SHE'S TRIED EVERYTHING, ALL KINDSA BEHAVIOURAL STUFF TO NO AVAIL! I'M MAD AND FRUSTRATED & SICK OF GETTING PICKED ON AND I'M ANGRY THAT I'M SORTA SCARED CUZ I'M BIGGER THAN KODY AND I WAS HERE FIRST, MOMMY 'DOPTED ME A WHOLE YEAR BEFORE HIM! MOMMY SAYS WELL KIRBY MAYE YOU NEED TO START ASSERTING YOURSELF MORE, YOU USED TO, WHAT MADE YOU STOP? IF KODY HARRASSES YOU, KICK HIS BUTT...HE NEEDS YOU TO RE-ESTABLISH YOUR ALPHA-MALE ORDER. SO ANYWAY....I KEEP HIDING & TRYING TO STAY AWAY FROM HIM AND THIS JUST SUX!
I DID USED TO BE THE ALPHA MALE AND I RULED....I DON'T KNOW FOR SURE WHAT HAPPENED TO CHANGE THINGS EXCEPT THAT KODY'S SO JEALOUS OVER MOMMY'S AFFECTIONS THAT HE GOT REALLY ASSERTIVE AND SNEAKY.
I'M TIRED OF FEELING JUMPY AND STALKED......MAN IT'S A MAJOR BUMMER!!!!

~MOVIES N STUFF~

MOMMY GOT A MEW CAMEWRA AND MADE A MEWVIE OF ME! THEN WE WATCHED IT TOGETHER AND IT WAS WEIRRRD TO SEE MYSELF ON THE T.V. BUT FUN TOO. I'M USED TO SEEING MYSELF ON THE PUTER BUT NOT THE TUBE! MOL!! IT SNOWED A BUNCH HERE AND IT'S COLD AND ICKY AND CARS ARE SLIPPING ALL OVER AND I SAT N WATCHED THEM OUT THE WINDOW. I HOPE SUMMER COMES SOON BUT MOMMY SAID THAT WINTER'S JUST GETTIN STARTED! YUCK!!!!! I WANT SUNSHINE! OH WELL, SOMETIMES THE SUN SHINES ON ME IN MOMMY'S DEN IN THE MORNING & I LAY IN THE SUNBEAMS AND BOY THAT FEELS GOOD! I THINK I WILL SLEEP A LOT SO SUMMER GETS HERE SOONER! MOLOLOL!!!!!!!