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I think I'm still here in denial that my kitty of 14 years is no longer with me. I loved her so much. She was my first pet that was all my own. I had her since I was in 5th grade.

Last Saturday she stopped eating. I force fed her through Sunday and took her to the vet Monday. They re hydrated her and took blood, she ate there. They sent her home, the blood work was fine. She did not eat but she was drinking. Lethargic yet bright eyed, we kept her at peace from the dogs here in the computer room. Tuesday through Thursday still not eating. Called the vet they said to come get special food, so I did. Still nothing. Called Friday morning to schedule for X-rays. Took her in at 5pm. She had a huge tumor taking up one entire lung. After a list of things the vet said he could do to keep her alive for up to 6 months we decided it was time. By the end she was a little package of bones. I stayed with her while she slipped away into the final sleep. My husband had to leave the room before it happened or he would have lost it.

My heart now aches to give her one last nuzzle on the head as we used to do to each other. I know it needed to be done but I miss her so much. My 5 other fur babies just look at me like "what's wrong mommy". Their kisses are soothing though. I am having issues on "I should have...."'s. I should have fed her better food, I should have taken one more picture, I should have given her one more treat, I should have taken her paw print... I find a small amount of relief knowing that I took her outside for 5 minutes before we went to the vet. She loved to be in the yard, sunbathing on the deck. I laid her in the grass and told her everything was going to be okay.


She was a wonderful friend and put up with so much with all the dogs. Now I am in tears realizing shes gone. I will miss her forever.

Sugar K. Puss ~ September 1st 1992 - March 10th, 2006