I went to the bridge today

My weak little body (I had lost so much weight) just couldn't go on any longer. I know mommy and sister Chloe will miss me forever and I will miss them. But If they remember me I will always be there.

So far, so good!

My cancer was diagnosed last June and ever since than mom has been giving me Prednisolone and Leukeran. I've gone for several CBCs (complete blood counts) and each one has been good. I haven't been throwing up at all and my appetite is good but I'm a lot more tired than I used to be. Mom does not have the money right now to take me to a specialist and I know she feels bad about that.

It's a little scary not knowing what the future is going to bring, but we just take each day as it comes.

I have cancer

A couple of weeks ago I was really sick, throwing up and not eating. Mommy was frantic with worry and took me to the vet. They said there was a "foreign object" in my tummy, and that they didn't know what it was. They operated to remove it and it was a big HAIRBALL! While they were operating on me they did biopsies of my stomach, liver, and small intestines. They've told mommy I have something called "low-grade lymphoma" in my small intestines.

Can someone who's "been there" offer advice and words of encouragement to my mom? I know it would mean so much. She has a lot of unanswered questions.

I've been feeling better lately, but I worry that I'm going to start feeling worse once I start taking medicine for my cancer.

I feel so VIOLATED!

My human woke me up early this morning, and took my on a journey. Boy, what a day I've had! I never leave the house except to go to the doctor (I hate going to the doctor!). She took me out today for the first time in almost a year and that's where I thought I was going. Instead, she took me to this place where there was no doctor but lots of other animals (mostly dogs). She left me there ALL DAY. I had no idea what I was there for, but then when it was "my turn" I was in for a shock: they held me down and SHAVED me! I feel so violated!

How could my human do this to me without asking my permission first? To be fair, I'm glad she did it. I've been getting too hot now that it's summer, and now I feel GREAT! My "new look" is going to take some getting used to, but I hope to be a trend setter with the other cats in my apartment building.

We just got home and now she's taking pictures of me! At least she just gave me some tuna......I think everything is going to be okay.

Gracie 6/24/05