January 28th 2015 1:51 pm
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A thousand times I've thought of you,
A thousand times I've cried.
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,
In death, I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
No other one can fill.
It broke my heart to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
For part of me went with you
The day God took you home.
Happy Birthday Buzzy Wuzz!
May 6th 2014 2:11 pm
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I can't believe it's a year since I last saw you. Where does time go? It's so precious!
I have been thinking about you so much over this past weekend. How I miss you. You brought so much joy and happiness to us. I remember collecting you and Boo and bringing you home to your forever home. It was wonderful. You both kept me up until about 3am every night because you would liven up and start scampering around and playing and I never tired of watching you both play. You healed my heart after Little Alfie went to the Bridge. You and Boo were so delightful I couldn't fail to fall in love with you both. You were such tiny bundles of fluff. So mischievous.
You had no fear. You just waded into everything while your sister Boo was always more cautious, not quite trusting until she was sure.
I can still picture you flying in through the catflap that Monday night but before I got the chance to pet you, you just squeaked excitedly and were gone in a flash back through. Never to be seen again. I've played it over and over and over in my head. Each time hoping for a different ending and each time it remains the same. I so wish if done something different that night. Maybe I should have looked to see what you were so excited by but I didn't. You were always excited by something. It was like you were having a big adventure.
The tears are flowing as I write. So much sadness it's just not right.
We miss you with all our hearts. If I could change it I would. I can't but I so wish I could.
Wherever you are my heart is with you.
February 13th 2014 4:46 am
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Oh My God. Samoa posted in her diary that you are Angel Dreamboat #61. This is such good news amongst all the sadness surrounding Catster. I only realised last night and was so chuffed.
I was looking at your photos last night and I started to cry again it makes me so sad when I think of what happened to you. If only I had called you back in that night when you slipped through the catflap. I have played it over and over in my head so many times but it always ends the same - you never come back. How I miss you.
Then we got the news that the Catster Community isn't closing like we thought. None of us know yet what the Catster Community will be like, if it will be the same or if there will be major changes, but it's not closing and that can only mean good news. I just can't bear the thought of yours and Little Alfie's profile pages not being there anymore. My friend Laura saved them for me on Wayback Machine and I am very grateful as I was panicking that I wouldn't be able to save them. There is all the same something very special about them being viewed on Catster. It's a magical place is Catster, a wonderful, extraordinarily beautiful, magical place.
Buzz I so miss you and Alfie. You are both in my heart with all our other furs past and present forever.
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