Arrival Story: After Little Alfie died. I was devastate and was writing his diary one night when for some unknown reason I decided to have a look on Gumtree.com to see if there were any kittens for sale. I spotted an ad that had 3 ginger boys and 2 tabby girls for sale. It had only been on the website for 3 hours, and I phoned straight away, but the nice lady, Charlotte, at the other end of the phone said that they all already had viewings arranged for the next day. She said the phone had not stopped ringing since the ad had been placed. I said “Oh well if it isn’t meant to be, it isn’t meant to be”.
I told her all about little Alfie and we chatted for about half hour. An hour later the phone rang and Charlotte phoned to say that there had been a cancellation and that she wondered if I would like to come for a viewing. I said yes immediately and arranged to meet Charlotte the next day at 11am.
I knew all the way over there that it was a mistake to go and look. I was still very raw and hurting. I wasn’t really sure if I was ready for another kitten just yet, but I couldn’t resist the urge to go and have a look. All the way there I kept telling myself I shouldn’t be going, but I was already in “no choice” mode.
There were 3 little ginger boys and I picked up one and put him down to have a look at the others. Then I picked up the 2nd ginger boy and when he looked into my face he just let out such a great big meow that I didn’t bother to look at the other one because in that one single moment this cute tiny furbaby had already stolen my heart.
That’s how Buzz ended up with his furever home and his new humans.
You especially Buzz have been playing on my mind. I cannot help thinking that you are out there somewhere, lost. I know it's because there was no body, but I do have your collar that the man from the railway found on the line. I suppose you could have just lost your collar and wandered off somewhere, and you could now be safe, living with another family.
I know it's an irrational thought, Buzz, but it nags at me sometimes and when it does it really niggles into my brain. I can't help it something about what happened just doesn't feel right and I can't put my finger on why that is. Whatever the reason Buzz, I can't make it go away........
I miss you so. Can you really have been gone this long. Not a day goes by when I don't think of you and little Alfie.
We have two new editions to the family Buzz. Little Flossie who has Cerebeller Hypoplasia and Dr Freddie. They are delightful little kittens, Buzz and I know that both you and Little Alfie had a hand in finding them.
I have created their profile pages, so that they can join our family on Catster.
I am so sorry I haven't written much in Buzz's diary. I think I have been in some sort of shock and I just couldn't bring myself to think too much, let alone write. I've been numb. It has been the saddest time. I just couldn't bring myself to write anything.
I am so grateful for all the help and support I have received from the Catster community again. I just don't know what I would have done without you all. Thank you so much.
Oh how we miss Buzz. Boo too misses Buzz so much and she wanders round the garden like a little lost soul sometimes. It is sad to watch. She does love to play and she seems to enjoy the extra time we have given her. She has got used to not being given so much freedom and doesn't go out of the house so much now.
I just had to visit Gumtree to look at the kittens. What gets into me. Why I did it I just don't know, but there they were two tiny precious ginger babies born on the 11th May. I looked at that picture and my mind told me that one was Buzz and one was Alfie. There are only 2 kittens in the litter and they are both ginger. God help me but I had to go and visit them. They were so tiny how could I not fall in love. So there you have it 2 new tiny babies are being given a home. I must be mad. Dave says I am just heading for more heartache and that I will never learn. I will put a picture of them on Buzz's page for you to see. I thought they were both boys but it turns out that one is a little ginger girly. We are going to call them Freddie and Flossie. I expect Flossie will be called Flo for short. They will come home early in July. I am apprehensive, scared and nervous.
Buzz's life was cut short unexpectedly and I hope my beautiful furbaby is having as much fun at the Bridge as he did when he was here with us. As with little Alfie if I could have that time all over again I would even if I knew what was going to happen.
My sweet, beautiful babies we miss you both so much.