August 14th 2012 3:28 pm
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It is no small surprise to me that you almost forgot it-the day that a lovely soft furred cat with huge peacock colored wings alighted before me, all softness and with a gentle purr held out a paw.
I knew her, of course. For everyone knows Angel Alex. In the second she alighted, her soft 'whoosh' of landing and the way she softly crossed the small space between us.
the words were unspoken at first, for as cats, we don't need words as humans do.
But I saw her, and beheld the most magickal creature ever. She cocked her head to one side and her eyes held mine.
the question was there....'Will you come?'
I felt a wave of sadness. For you, for Daddy, for my own past. Why?
But I knew the answers lay beyond me.
And Alex answered me 'You are much loved...you may continue the fight, and I will be with you, if you so choose.'
I was so tired Mommy. I had been so tired and weary. I wanted to find wellness again, and knew that Alex knew what I was going through. I told her that I was sad and worried and she touched her nose to me.
And suddenly, the first flash of wellness came over me. I could feel energy singing in me. I knew that this was not the end, dear dear person who was so kind. It was the beginning for me.
For Alex and I-are we not alike?
and so, dear Mom...and you are my mom...I say to you I rubbed my cheek against Alex's and she extended her wings, and carefully, I crept under one...and then...
I knew I had left my body behind, but it was no matter...for I was still Me. And I told myself that I would find a way to let you know.
So it was only right that a few days later a small, spunky and resilliant black and white kitten found his way to you, and you to him.
Ah, my little one..you have grown up....and I am so happy you have the human Mom I could send to you.
Mom, please don't be sad.....and no regrets or recriminations. You blame yourself for leaving me at the cat house for too long, for not seeing the stressed out housecat that could not understand what had happened. But things were not yours to see, dear human....you got me in from the streets , it was not your fault that I could not adjust. This was just something that happened before I came to you. And you trusted the Rescue because why would a rescue lady who had a 'good reputation' lie to you or daddy?
You only found out later the person she was.
And the vet she used...well...
It is OVER.
If humans and furs take anything away from my story, it is to trust what you feel, don't use a vet you don't like...no matter what. The same with any rescue...for people can be failable.
But let me tell you that I am happy and content. I can fly and travel. I have at times looked in on you. I have spoken with Ruffy. I have touched noses to Big Harry and looked out for the little ones down there...and then, those like me.
So it does not surprise me that you are working with the Brooklyn Bridge Animal Coilition to save a 15 year old cat abandoned at a high kill shelter in NY-a cat that looked so fearsome and frightened in her picture that no rescue showed even a minor interest besides BB-bless them.
she right now in on 'scratch hold' (she scratched someone,and then caught a cold, so they need to hold her for a bit because of this, we believe). Rest assured Mom I am looking over her. But it surprises us not at all you
said you would foster her...because she was the cat no one would take...excpet BB and you.
So....dear Mom, I know you did not forget...fir I am every homeless, abandoned cat, as we all are....as we are also the most wonderful creatures, filled with magick, love and light...and this side of the rainbow...or that....
We are all.....always....the magick of Cat.
Thank you Mom...
I celebrate my all too brief time with you....my wonderful life...and all the wonder that we all share as felines.
love and purrs,
Cee Cee Ryder Knowles
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There can be no words that can say it but the 2 simplest words in cat or humanspeak...
CeeCee, we know you are watching your family, and we love them all...Bless you, and them
*Sniff* you speak so well sweet one.
I know you're watching over us all beautiful angel girl.