January 17th 2012 10:12 pm
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Some days are harder than others, and some days I feel like I am healing. Then on a night like tonight it feels like the hurt is all brand. Grief is a strange thing.
Today my sister ask "how are you?" I feel like I am getting better and then I have night like tonight and the tears will not seem to stop flowing.
Kitties are amazing, I was just thinking that if Ivey were here she would not let me be alone in my sadness, (there were not kitties with me)callie had just left me and now little boy has just joined me. It is like he knows I need some comfort.
So incredible how such a small creature that I knew for such a short time can hurt my heart so when she is gone.
She went through so much and yet she loved people so unconditionally.
I miss you little moma.
Sending you lotsa purrs. I know she is looking down on you.
We're happy your kitties are trying to comfort you in your time of need. Ivey looked so happy in those pictures. I know that wherever she is, she misses you as much as you miss her.
Sending you lots of love and gentle hugs, Anna
Sending lots of hugs and purrs your way. Remember we are all here for you, you'll never be alone in your sadness.
This morning I woke without you,
Where you always used to sleep
A little ball of the softest fur
and I began to weep
For you knew me at my best
You knew me at my worst
There wasn't a day that went by my friend
That you didn't put me first
And though there are others about me
They just aren't you
A glorious mix of meow and fur
That stuck with me like glue
You went through all my life's events
All the good and bad
You were the most constant constant
Whether I was happy or sad
And you were the best cat, Ever
As I held you the very first time
You wound your paws around my neck
And you were undeniably mine
You were the best cat ever
As I carried you in from the cold
For I saw beneath the grime
There beat a heart of gold
We were always the best of friends
I could rely on you
Through every chapter of my life
You were with me, too
As our little family grew,
I watched you change with time
I leaned over and kissed your soft fur
For with every new cat that came, you were still really mine.
And you were the best cat, ever
I love you so much it's true
For you are a mircle with all the trimmings
You're simply the best, it's true
You were the best cat, ever
I laughed when you chased around
Looking oh so very startled
At all the wonder you found
But sometimes life just happens
And our paths come to an end
And I lost you so unexpectedly
My very best forever friend.
And now the world seems empty
I feel I'll drown in tears
It just isn't fair at all
I thought we'd have more years!
And you were the best cat ever!
I love you with all my heart
Can't concieve being without you
Don't even want to start
But fate has parted our paths
I hope you're out there somewhere
Oh my wonderous little friend
It's just so unfair!
You were the best cat ever
My best friend, it's so
If I could barge through heavens gates
I'd never let you go,
I'd run right back here with you
I'd fight every angel for you
My furever faithful friend
I feel I'm drowning in blue
Today I felt the sun shine down
I saw a shadow on the floor
I swore I saw a twitching tail
As I came in the door
and walked around the side of the house
To see a tiny kit sitting there
But how could this be happening?
He had your same long hair!
And you are the best cat ever...
You sent an earth angel to me
With trusting eyes and knowing looks
I know he knows I see
That you are the Best Cat Ever
And now I know you're not gone
Back here watching over us
Yes, you still go on.....
Dear Momma Ivey's mom....I wrote this for you and Ivey. I also wrote it for everyone who has lost a Soul Kitty, for everyone who's Cat Guide has leapt from their familar fur into the 'Unknown'.
When Cee Cee passed, 3 days later, Mommy and Daddy stood under Angel Oak in South Carolina. If you have never seen this place, google it...it's truly amazing.
In the parking lot, a little boy fed a cracker to a small, skinny black and white kitten. When the little boy and his family left, Mommy and Daddy saw the small, feral looking face peek out at them. Mommy took 20 mintues to coax him to her with a can of cat food.
CK is now fast becoming a handsome, silky young mancat with very deep gold eyes that KNOW.
I know...as do my kind...that Cee Cee...well, she was a cat on a mission.
I think of Angel Alex, who I have not met, except in dreams...but I know....with something that is innate in my kind...that she touches noses to many cats a night, offering love, comfort, and purrs. She stands there with her tail twitching....and puts out her paw to heal...or to give the choice....shall you come.....? to those who's time dawns with the sure beckoning from some wonderful loving energy beyond.
I know Momma Ivey trotted off with Alex...and Tigger, and maybe others who she knew...and continues to know.
And I know...with the Certainty of Cat....
She'll be back.
love and light and many, many purrs
That's a sweet tribute, O.R. The Mama doesn't "speak" much for our Angel Maya - can't explain exactly why. Partly I suppose because she feels she HAS moved on - maybe into ME. But what you describe about Cee Cee - she feels about Maya. There was some special "something" which Maya gave to her and the Papa. The Mama sort of recognized it in Moma Ivey, I guess. It's why she was so moved by her passing.
Thanks for the love, yesterday was so hard I would have thought Monday would have been bad...
Orange Ruffy thank you, your writing is so touching, such a beautiful tribute to my little Moma kitty.
Sending love to Moma Ivey's mom and family!
Lovely poem and tribute by Orange Ruffy.
itz Ok ta cry moma ivey's mom...if God dinna want peepuls ta cry, HIM wooda never made tears....grief bee sum thing ewe handle in yur own way N in yur own time, ther bee no roolz...moma ivey misses ewe all az muchas ewe miss her...pleez never forget her sends love back....like 24/7
Many many many purrs for you from me and River, we know how special Ivey was and how much you did for her, she knows too.
Mommy is feeling just like you too,its so hard,sending you lots of love and purrsxxxxxxxx
Ruffy, you are absolutely FANTASTIC!!! Luv, Tink
My mummy feels just like you, but she wants you to know that she has turned a corner. She is starting to smile again, little by little and she is praying for you.
She says she could not have managed without the Catster community.
Thank you for looking after her.
Lots of hugs to you
Many big hugs to you, Ivey's Mom.
Meowmy too sometimes gets all sad when she thinks about our angel furblings, its OK to cry, because it DOES hurt - a lot.
Orange Ruffy sure sent you a beautiful poem.
We see you are a DDP today, so the Diary Gal is feeling along with you,at least we like to think that.
Meowmy says, she thinks purrhaps Ivey is sitting somewhere in Kitty Heaven having a chat and a cup of tea, sort of like these two matronly kitties:
Keeping you so furry close in our thoughts and pawyers,
Pipo, Minko & Meowmy Ingrid
Mom's tears r flowin' again. Oh sweet Angel Moma Ivey, we know how much it hurts!~ Mom does that with Smokey Joe too! Time doesn't seem to heal, like dey sez!~ Her does haz us, me 'n Mallee, but da pain still hurts 'n her always misses her Baby Boy blue!~ Beautifur poem, Orange Ruffy! OMC, 'n Pipo 'n Minko what a lovely pishure! it iz! It is Moma Ivey havin' tea 'n catebratin' her fine honor today on bein' DDP!~ We all will catebrate her fine spawcial day 'n memmer always in our hearts!! I know's Moma Ivey 'n Smokey Joe will be catebratin' their honors together up in sweet Heaven pawtyin' down at da Angel Inn!!~ Concats Ivey, we love you!!
Purrs 'n big hugs,
MILO, MALLEE, SMOKEY JOE, SAM, ZIGGY 'n TIMMY
Congratulations! Sweetie on your DDP. Sending our love and hugs to your Mom.
The Bush Furs
Dear momma Ivey's Pawrents:
Sorry wees didn't comment yesterday. Daddy didn't even log on, was a very sad day here too. Please know, you are in our purraters, and we hope that Momma Ivey will visit you in your dreams, so you know she is ok. We love you all!!!
Hugs and purrs and prayers to Blizz and you family, we love 'yall' too.
Thanks to everyone for your comments, poems, letters and and pics, we knew the grief support is was so strong and it really helps. I can almost see my girl at the bride and the picture WeBeesSiamese sent look like my skids kitty and ivey having some tea and cookies (small smile)
I have never had the experience of seeing my babies in a dream to let me know they are ok, but I just know they are maybe that is why...my husband see our skids kitty a few days after she passed and he said she was looking good and young and healthy. "it was like she came to say howdy, everything is alright"