January 11th 2012 8:29 pm
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The hurt is so intense at times it feels like Monday night all over again. Then there are times I can move through it and it is more manageable. I feel like this is so different than when I had to let Skids and Alley go to the bridge, I hurt but it was that look in their eyes that confirmed for me what the vets had said I knew it was time to let go with my Ivey girl the last time I saw her eyes she was lovin life and she so adored me.
There are empty places all over the house now even though there are 5 kitties here, her places are empty. As I lay on the bed tonight, TIny and Calie are here MoeMoe is under the bed and the spot on the end of the bed were my girl liked to stay is empty. Just now as I talked to Calie, I looked for Ivey to come from, the end of the bed up to my shoulder, cause she was always right in my face when I talked, or on my feet if I was standing.
I am so grateful to everyone for your love and support there are many pawrents that are grieving at this very time just like I am and yet you were here to offer comfort in your time of grief.
Thank you Tink for starting the candle and for you prayers and the candle you lite on Monday. I want to eventually thank everyone, for now please know how much I appreciate you all.
All of us were surprised at the suddenness of Ivey's passing. I hope we can find out what happened if only for peace of mind. What happened to Ivey is what we all fear will happen to our kitties. I do a head count each morning when I go to work and again when I get home and again before bed. Just to be sure everyone is OK and didn't get trapped somewhere.
Cats have their usual spots, but sometimes they decide to move to a different place on the bed. I hope one comes up to keep you company. I wish I could help. Grieve and be strong. Remember the good times as well as the bad. Treasure her memory and get hard copies of her photos for a frame. Computer data corrupts over time, but photos last a lifetime.
I know what you're talking about because Snow always comes up to me when I'm talking to Tink, even though he's deaf. I've always talked to him anyway - sometimes he can feel vibrations of sound(when you speak against his face), but I know he is just hyperaware of my behavior and can tell when I'm relaxed & paying attention to her. He follows me everywhere too.
I'm sure you probably feel worse after dark - everything feels worse when it's dark. I'm sure you feel unsettled during the day. Something is missing.
It's just so unfair that it happened so suddenly. We all wish we could change that for you.
Maybe you should think about making a small sort-of shrine, with framed photos of the three of them with their favorite toys in zip bags, or in clear containers, and collars or swatches of favorite blankets, cans of their favorite food - anything that made them special. Then when you see it throughout your day, you can stop and imagine them all together, playing up at the Rainbow Bridge, probably on cloud 777314, in shouting distance of Dude K of DA TABBIES. How much FUN they would have!! Just a thought...Luv, Tink
Thanks Sarge I do that head count too, every morning and at night before bed time and as soon as I return from work.....on monday night I loved little boy and then Ivey was my second kitty to see.....thanks for saying you wish you could help.... I truly know you do cause that is how I feel when I hear of a kitty passing. I know with time it will get easier. I need to get some hard copies of the photos that is a good ideal.
Like Tink said maybe I can make a shrine, tonight I looked at the little Christmas cloth she loved to Knead on...
Thank you it is good to be a part of catster while I deal with this.
Sending you lots of purrs and hugs.
Please believe me when i say i know exactly how you feel,the pain is the price we must pay for loving so much
((hugs)) and prayers
Mommy Sandra xx
for being such a small creature, you filled such a vast space; home; which seems ever so quiet, and ever so empty without your presenece...we love you and always will....mom, dad, calie, boo,
LB, tot, moemoe, little bit and freckles.......
It's because we love you! Don't you know that by now? You're always there for us when we need you, when we just want to have fun together, need a shoulder, etc. Where else would we be? This was so sudden and shocked us all but you are her mommy and this is hurting you so badly. No closure I think, no goodbye. Life is so full of these moments where we can't understand why something happened and we may never have those answers. All we can do is be there for each other and help each other get through the hard times and celebrate the good times. My heart hurts for you so much.
We don't know how to fill up those empty places either, but we are sending you our loving hugs and purrs.
I know about that intense feeling of pain. I wonder if it will ever leave, but part of me is glad of the pain I would hate it if my darling Alfie's passing had no impact on my life and my family. I know too that the pain will pass for both of us and that one day we will be able to look at all the lovely photos and the video clips and feel the joy that our babies brought us.
I know too that there will always be a pain in our hearts for them and that they passed all too soon. Only God knows why they had to leave so soon.
I know that Moma Ivey and all her family had a wonderful home and family.
I thank you for all the comfort you have given me and I wish you peace and happiness. Moma Ivey like little Alfie wouldn't want us to be so sad. I am certain of that.
I'm sure it's also comforting to know that Alfie has Moma Ivey, who had some experience at being a mommy, and Moma Ivey has a new little baby, Alfie, who will always be a kitten, to nurture.
I was deeply saddened when I heard about Moma Ivey's passing. My heart goes out to you in your time of sorrow. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Take care. ♥ Love, Pigeon & Mom
We all understand...all too well. And we are here, always, just a p-mail away. even if you just need to talk.
Booboo, honey, please go gives mom some lovins.
Snow, that's such a great thought. Alfie and Moma Ivey together, Now, they have Omega the kitty with the golden eyes, to join them at the welcoming parties. The welcoming party must be awesome there.
Calie, make sure your Mom does that shrine thing too. We have a glass jar with a lid and in it is the collars of all the past kitties and doggies in mom's life. Occasionally, she will open it up and look at the collars and read the tags. Grandma wouldn't let Mom have Tuxs collar though..she said it belonged to him so it will stay with him.
How are you kits holding up? We could tell Diamond missed Tux for awhile. Take care of yourself and your family. Love you.
I'm so sorry about Moma Ivey. Losing a fur kid is hard, especially when you're not prepared for it. I guess sometimes Heaven needs their angels back sooner than planned. Moma Ivey is here at the Bridge and is the most beautiful angel. She sends love and purrs to her meowmy and family.
Hugs & Purrs,
Sally Maria Angel
Sending you lots of purrs.
Lots of love and purrs from us - Sleeper, Samhain and Fearless, plus the ferals
I'm sorry you've made your journey to the bridge, Moma Ivey. You're going to learn how to be a pawsome guardian angel and you'll even sprinkle angel dust on your family! Lots of new angel pals will keep you company until you see your family again one day.
Hug's and prayer's and purr's for you.
Eddy & Family
Dear Momma Ivey's Mom,
We, who are feline, live life so differently. We are in the moment, every moment. We don't fear death. Dogs we might fear, not eating, yes, but not the leaping of the soul from the body.
Humans do. It's the missing of the phsyical form we left...and the fear that there may not be 'something else'. But I can tell you there is. How do I know? Ask any cat. As we leap skyward, we leave a trail of stardust....for we are made of it...and every miracle ever born.
When your soul has healed a bit, and you're in a place where the pain isn't so fresh...Momma Ivey will come back to you. She may come as a Spirit cat, or as another fur.
You'll know her when she comes.
Meanwhile, please know you're thought of deeply and kindly here, with many purrs and heartfelt head rubs.
I love 'yall' I know this is a healing process for me and the words are soo soothing. I know my moma Ivey kitty will love being a moma cat to little Alfie and all the other angel kitties here will help her be a purrrfect little angel just as she was my puurfect little moma kitty here.
I you have not met the little "Alfie" kitten, please go by his page, his mom needs lot of love too.
Thanks for mentioning little Alfie, Moma Ivey. If you are feeling up to it~ I was going to ask you if you could be his mom here? He is a real love and he does need the female touch.
Love and hugs
Ivey's mom, I forgot to say, please don't worry about "thanks."
The love and support is given freely. I think I speak for everyone, no thanks is expected and it is understood that you are grateful.Most of us have been where you are...
Hang in there,
Love and hugs
oooh Alfie and mom the angel mom and angel kitten is a sweet ideal I am working hard to see her at the bridge as the angel I know she is, my mind still keeps repeating the night I found her (tears) I know it will get better. I would love for my moma Ivey to be Alfie's mom she was such a great moma when the kittens were little
I know Moma Ivey was a great mom. Exactly why I think she should be baby Alfie's mom. My Alfie is thinking of being his dad.
He was always such a nurturing boy, my Alfie. He liked being nurse when one of his brothers was sick. When I lost Wally, ALfie got so sick, the doc told me to get a kitten. so that's how we got Teddy.
Moma Ivey, we are purring for your mom. The words "empty places" describe so well what she is going through. We're sending her gentle hugs and soothing purrs. It's sweet of her to mention little angel Alfie, even with her own loss. Beautiful words from Orange Ruffy.