October 7th 2011 8:09 am
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Today marks one year since I made my journey to Rainbow Bridge. I always meant to say goodbye to all of you but things happened very quickly near the end of my life and I really did not get the chance then. I miss you, my friends, and I miss my family- especially my mom. I am never far away but my presence is not the same as it once was. I love you guys so don't ever forget that. Time for me to go now.
Louis at Rainbow Bridge
October 14th 2010 8:15 am
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Yesterday my sweet Louis came home. His dad picked up his urn at the vet. I am not yet able to look at any of what was sent along with that. But I was told there is a clay print of Louis' paw, some of his fur and of course the urn with Louis. It is a very sad time for all in our house. I still do not know how I will get through this at this point. I miss Louis so much. I miss his companionship, his wisdom, his beauty and most of all his love.
I was going to tell you more about the last few days for Louis but it just does not seem that I can. Louis did get to come home last Tuesday afternoon. His problems had not improved and he started to retain fluids in an alarming way. And he was no longer being given any fluids!
I knew without a doubt that it was time for him to make his journey to Rainbow Bridge. I told him I felt that he had been through enough. He fought hard to stay here with me and his family. Now it was time to rest. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life. I knew that he would be at peace though. I so hope he is alright and happy wherever he might be. I will love and miss him forever more.
Thank you to all of you for your comments, gifts for Louis on his page, cards, email, pawmail, purrs, prayers and just the fact that you care enough to read this diary entry. I hope to thank each of you personally when I feel more up to it. But I hope you know each and every thing you did for Louis and his family is so deeply appreciated.
October 7th 2010 12:40 pm
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At 2:18pm EST today, my sweet Louis made his journey to the Rainbow Bridge & became an angel. His problems snowballed very quickly the last few days. I will tell you more when I feel up to it. Louis is at peace now and that is the most important thing.
Mom to Louis
October 4th 2010 3:50 pm
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Saturday morning all was well. Then a bit later I was trying to go in the litter box but could not. I tried so hard it made me vomit. Then I was gasping and short of breath. We left for the same place we went for an ER fever once. They are close by at least. The vet there felt I might need to be there all weekend & several enemas to get things moving. :(
My mom went home but kept thinking about things. I do still get that fever. Nobody stays at this vet all night even though it has an ER type of service. What if the fever came about 10pm or so & there was nobody to help me cool down? My mom finally got in touch with the place I was at after hours & brought up the fever problem again. The vet there agreed with my mom that I probably should have closer monitoring just in case. So they agreed to move me to the big ER at the oncology place.
They did 4 or 5 enemas at the first ER place with no result. This big ER said they would not have done that many so fast. They were going to try Lactulose but said it might take some time to work. The ER vet took me & my mom in the back to see my x-ray from the first ER. She could really see the problem. I really liked the ER vet as she just loved me. Kissed me endless times! She told me she was not my mom but I was getting her kisses anyway. She was sweet.
I still didn't poop on Sunday. Today my Internist was in. She decided to put me under & try to help things with a massage. She said it was risky due to all my problems. It had to be done though. Luckily all went well this afternoon. No problems from the anesthesia. She took care of my poop problem. The bad news was that she found an area of my colon near my back-end that was narrowed. She feels the cancer may have spread to this area now. This had nothing to do with my reason to be in the ER as that area was up much higher in my colon than the narrowed area. She does not feel the narrowing is enough to cause me problems just yet at least. I was sorry to know it was there though.
They have me on IV fluids so my paw is shaved again & it was just starting to grow back in nicely from the other time. I am also on some antibiotics as the vet did not like the way my tumor area looks & wants to be sure it does not get infected. I had been picking at it again while in the ERs. My fever held about 102-103 so just slight so far. I am also on the lactulose too. I could have come home late tonight (after some observation) but my mom doesn't see well to drive in the dark & my dad is at work so I am staying one more night. I will be home tomorrow morning. I can't wait!
At the oncologist just this past Fri, the update had some good news. My white blood cell count was back down to 25,000. But sadly the red blood cells were back down from 23% to 20%. My Internist said that was pretty common in animals with a chronic disease.
So if anyone wants to band together & come rescue me tonight, there might be a little catnip, trout or shrimpies in the bargain. Otherwise I'll be home soon.
Thanks again for all the lovely comments, pawmail, email, cards, purrs, prayers & gifties on my page. I have the best pals in Catsterland.
September 28th 2010 12:49 pm
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I forgot to add in my diary entry below earlier today that I do still get the fevers every other day. We are so used to dealing with them that it seems part of a normal week for me.
Also wanted to thank all my friends for the support, prayers, purrs, pawmail, email, comments, gifties, cards and your friendship. That last one is truly the greatest gift too.
September 28th 2010 12:37 pm
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When I last updated you, we were not sure how bad the anemia would get and how fast. My lab work showed that it has actually gone up from 20% to 23%! So that means I am regenerating some red blood cells on my own. I hope this continues. What a nice surprise.
The Palladia did not seem to be the cause of any problems for me so they are letting me use my prescription and then will do labs & see if a bit more time will help my white blood cells to once again become in the normal range Of if that one lower reading was just a fluke. At my last lab work result they were back in the 50,000 range.
My latest problem was then suspicion that I was becoming Diabetic from taking the Prednisilone for so long and being a big boy. My glucose was in the 200s a lot of the time. My vet did the long range glucose test to see what my blood sugars had been running for several weeks or months to better get a look at what was going on. That test came back in the normal range! We were all very glad about that. One less problem for me to deal with right now. They still would like to see if I can do well on less Prednisilone to be on the safe side with the glucose. So we are kind of experimenting with that. My vet feels that to even try starting me on insulin with readings in the 200 range would put me at too much risk for low blood sugar problems.
Another thing I have started doing is licking the tumor area on my tummy. I have it a bit irritated looking. My mom read online that some cats do that as they just don't like the tumor there. My vet said she had some kind of freeze spray that might help it feel better from the way I have it inflamed now. I really don't want to wear that silly E-collar again. So I hope I can lick & somehow get away with it. Oh and I have a new addiction. I've gotten into wanting ice water all the time. I mean as cold as my mom can get it. When I see her go to the freezer I just start squealing with delight! I just love licking ice cubes or drinking ice water.
September 16th 2010 9:07 am
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I did not get any good news about my lab work. My White Blood Cell count jumped up to a new high of 53,000! The other bad news is that the red cell count (PCV) did not go up. It remains at 20%. That means that it was not the Palladia causing my anemia. It is the cancer itself. Had it been the Palladia then my body would have generated new red blood cells in that week but it did not. I am back on the Palladia to get the WBC count back down as it was normal when I was on the med before. I don't feel well when it is that high. But the really bad news is the PCV. My mom asked about a few meds that help anemia but they are just for anemia caused by renal failure or chemo. They can actually make cancer grow faster and shorten a life.
So considering my PCV dropped 6% in only one week, this is very bad. It could mean just days more for me. We are hoping it will stabilize so I can have more time and be with my mom. It's odd as I feel good right now. I guess that will change if my PCV gets any lower though. My mom is just so sad. I know she tries to hide it but I am not fooled when I look into her eyes. I am worried about her. It's going to be very hard for her to be without me.
We may not be back online as we don't foresee any good news to share coming up. My mom will let you know when my situation changes. I do want you to always remember how much I love each and every one of you! You will always be a part of me. I've had so much fun on Catster over the years. Thank you again for your prayers, purrs, pawmails, emails, comments, gifties and most of all for your friendship. I love you!
September 10th 2010 8:49 am
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There was not much change for me for awhile there. I went weekly to get my lab work to watch what the Palladia was doing. Well after my test last week the Palladia did a lot. It dropped my White Blood Cell count from 50,000 to a high normal of 20,000! This is what we all wanted to see in hopes it would help the fevers. So far it has not though. However the Palladia also dropped my PCV (red blood cells) from 26% to 20% in one week. Yikes! That made me anemic. Dr T said to stop the Palladia immediately. I did not seem to feel bad at least. My mom knows the symptoms of anemia from seeing Simon have it when he had his battle with Chronic Renal Failure. His anemia was non-regenerative & we are hoping that mine is regenerative. If mine is for sure caused by the Palladia then I should be fine now that it has been stopped. We should know today as I had more tests yesterday to determine all that.
So now it looks like I can't take the Palladia. We are all very disappointed as we had hoped it would slow the cancer progression. We will know for sure on future use of Palladia for me once we hear from the vet hopefully later today. It seems like no matter what we try, it just does not help me. We are about out of magic now. :(
Like I said before, I still have the fevers but I also still have my good days too. For now my tumors are stable. I still enjoy eating, singing to my forks and watching the birds outside. We keep hoping the fevers will stop as mysteriously as they started and then each day will be good for me.
Many thanks for all the support! Also for prayers, purrs, Power of the Paw, comments, pawmail, gifties and just keeping me in your thoughts. I will update when I know more about the latest tests.
August 20th 2010 12:33 pm
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I still continue to have every other day being one of fever, not wanting to eat or do much of anything. Well I should say the first part of that day. By late afternoon I am usually eating again & feeling pretty good. Then the other days I am really well- eating, watching birdies & singing to forks. All the fun things in life. It's quite a mystery what is going on with me. My oncologist still feels it is the cancer putting out something I can't recall the name of and that causes all the symptoms that make me feel bad. Not sure why this happens like clock-work every other day though. We see nothing that changes on any day to cause the problems.
My Internist got together with Ohio State Veterinary School to ask about trying the Palladia even while still on the Prednisilone. I just can't be taken off of it or my symptoms get even worse it seems. Ohio State has one of the best veterinary schools in the country. My mom considered taking me there at first. But it is about a 2 hour drive for us and if we had to go as much as I was going to my oncologist then it would have been very hard on both my mom and me too to travel so much. So it is nice that my oncologist went to school there and can conference with them anytime about my case. It turns out that Ohio State does indeed give Palladia along with Prednisilone to cats all the time! So yesterday I had my first dose. No side effects from it as yet so let's hope that continues.
My mom did not come by the decision to try me on the Palladia easily. She weighed all the options. The fever etc. on the bad days just got to her. This is a chance to help those symptoms. We already tried antibiotics & some were really strong ones with no luck. My white blood cell count is at 50,000 (20,000 being high normal) so we need to get that down & stop the symptoms. I go back in one week to check my blood & see how we are doing. I will have had 3 pills by then as I take it every other day with 2 days off of it after 3 pills.
Oh I forgot to mention that I threw up last Monday & was gasping after for a bit. Then I was still breathing with some noise so my mom took me to see my oncologist. He could not find any new problems with my lungs so thinks I may have aspirated some when I threw up. Luckily it is rare for me to throw up. They did an ultrasound and it showed my big tumor is stable & no change. However they did find some new little ones on my right side. So good news and bad news there. I keep fighting though!
Thanks so much for the purrs, prayers, emails, pawmails, comments and pretty gifties on my page. Each and every one means so much to us. Support means a lot when you are fighting a hard health battle. Now back to my fight.....
August 2nd 2010 7:39 am
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Today is Day 5 of me being on the reduced dose of Prednisilone. I have done really well except for yesterday. Back came a low grade fever, not eating and just wanting to sleep. My mom was very worried but last night decided to keep me on the reduced dose and see how I did today. Well today I am doing fine. I even cleaned my plate at breakfast. So maybe this time I can get through this Prednisilone addiction and move along. After 7 days my dose will again be cut and I will be on just one Pred a day. Then after a week of that I go to every other day & can try the Palladia. We are thinking that from time to time I may get a day of the fever etc back just because I've had so much of it already. We won't hit the panic button for one day of it at least.
In a couple of days we won't be Catster Plus anymore. My mom decided this some time ago so it has nothing to do with Nutro food or anything. Not that we don't have a problem with ads for them but it is not what made our decision on Plus. Our subscription was up for the year. Some day on down the road my mom figures we won't participate in it much when all of the cats in my family are no longer here. It will be too painful for my mom so she made the choice while we are all still here and doing pretty good. Besides with all of my medical expenses we can use the money to help pay them. They are pretty steep overall. So we will have to sometimes just send our friends a birthday pawmail rather than a rosette. It won't mean we love you any less for sure! :)
Oh I also wanted to tell you about what we saw last night. There was a doe and her fawn in our backyard. They were playing and eating some of the surrounding bushes in the yard. It was so cute to watch. Well the playing, not really the eating! When I was younger I used to get so excited at seeing deer. It was like I was a mighty hunter and wanted to go after them. MOL! I was a silly cat but it made for some good cat dreams too.
More thanks for the prayers, purrs, gifties, pawmails & comments. My mom prints everything out to put in my scrapbook. So you will all be part of it. The BEST part of it!