My Life as Kandi Girl

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Message from me and my family

April 25th 2015 3:36 pm
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Message from heaven, as we all know with me being so new here in heaven I am trying to learn all the angel duties so I won't be around much for a while. I have to say all of my family, friends and my first Mom was there waiting for me. It took me time to get here because one minute I was there with Mom and the next thing I knew I was flying to heaven.I didn't want to leave because Mom was holding me crying I wanted to stay but my body gave out, I couldn't stay, God and the angels were calling me home. As hard as it was to leave, Mom knows I am at peace now and I will be waiting for her along with all of her kitty and doggy angels and family.

Mom has been reading all the messages you have sent to me and Mom, of course Mom has been crying, like all of our Moms do....we thank you all for the loving support you gave to me and Mom.


We still say this is the best place to be for the loving support we give one another. Mom says it will be easier to thank you all in my diary instead of individual thank yous, it is just too hard for her to do and we know you all understand besides there are so many.

Mom knows is was time for me to leave earth, she was ready to let me go even if it was hard on her. She saw the signs I was giving her, she knew she just knew. If I hadn't passed away when I did, she was going to take me to my vet to let me go in the morning.


Peggy here, I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for the love and support you gave me during Kandi's last week with us. She was ready to go, she knew I tried and did everything I could for her, but in the end her kidneys were failing fast. The vet told us her kidney numbers were through the roof and there was no way to change what was happening. She did suggest we let her go, but none of us were ready not without fighting and trying, then letting her have time with us while she was still able to eat, walk around so we could give her love, hold her, take her outside to spend time in the sun while in my arms.

Once she started going downhill it was fast even if we wanted to take her to the ER to help her we would not have made it, she would have passed in the car instead she was in my arms getting lots of love, she know she was loved.

So now I am healing one day at a time, still grieving and in shock that she is gone, it was so unexpected. I haven't gone back into her room to clean, just too hard right now...soon I will go in.

We have her home now, got her a simple urn, today I did up a photo of her to put on the front. I have her in my curio to keep safe, I still need to find a place for her, probably will put her with my Mom, they are together now.

Again thank you, you are the best!

Peggy and Kandi our sweet angel

 

I am home

April 21st 2015 3:21 pm
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Mom went to the vet tiday and got my ashes, some of my fur in a pretty little drawstring pouch and my paw print. She also got my urn in the mail yesterday,so now I will be in my final resting place in my home with my mom & dad where I belong. Mom will take pictures but won't put here until catster is fixed.

Mom is sad again because it is real I am gone and she has another kitty angel, but she will be fine we will know it.

Hugs from mom's sweet Kandi angel

 

I am missed and we thank you all

April 16th 2015 2:39 pm
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I am missed so much, Mom is still trying to get a grip that I left earth so fast, she is still in shock...but she knows in time she will be OK thanks to all of our friends here on Catster.

I am so missed, it is hard for Mom to start her day without seeing me and ending her day with me....but she is now taking more time with my furry family

Mom will thank you all once she is able to come here and not feel so bad, right now it is still so hard.

I meowed loudly, Dad yelled at Mom as she has just left me and went into her room for a minute, she ran back in, lifted me up, wrapped me in a towel and was loving me telling me how much she loved me, will always love me, then I was gone. As I left my body I saw Mom crying, I tried to tell her I will always be with her but her grieving didn't let her hear me. She has heard my meows and swears she has seen me walking past the closed door....guess what it was me....

I have to tell you that Mom ordered my urn, it is a cedar box, it will have "Beloved Sweet Kandi" also my birth date and my passing date on the top and a place on the front for Mom to put a picture of me....she will get it next week and hopefully at the same time she will be bringing me home. Our Vet handled me with loving care & consoled Mom, they did a paw print, nose print and saved some of my fur for Mom. It will be very very hard for Mom to go get me, it will make it real, real that I am gone....but always with her.

After she took my body to the vet on Monday, she closed my bedroom door and hasn't gone back in, she isn't ready to face going in and I am not there. She said in time she will go in clean up, move furniture around so it won't remind her of when I was there....she is dreading having to do it, but she will. Mom and Dad have decided to keep the door closed and keep the room clean one less area to clean. It is for guest now.

Mom knows she shouldn't blame herself for not knowing but she is still questioning herself that she didn't know I was so sick until that last week....one will never know just when I started having kidney failure, but it is now too late...

I had a wonderful life especially my last 5+years, I was with my second Mom, she took really good care of me and she never gave up on me, I learned to trust her and love her, I become much friendlier too. I even got to make the long trip to our new home in AZ....our beautiful home and now I will be resting there and watching over my Mom.....I am loved and missed.

Sweet Kandi Angel

 

Kandi is my sweet angel

April 12th 2015 9:47 pm
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Sadly my sweet Kandi girl passed away in my arms this evening. She is at peace now.

 

Purrs needed for Kandi

April 12th 2015 4:54 pm
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Kandi is now failing fast, she had been doing really good these last few days, but today when I tried to feed her I realized she just wasn't doing well and didn't want me to force feed her so I am not, we did give her a small amount of her sub Q fluids. Shortly after she was laying with me and it was clear her life on earth is coming to an end. I took her to her room so she could lay on the bed on her heating pad, her breathing is raspy now, she had trouble walking so we are making her comfortable and spending time with our sweet Kandi.She has been hiding under the bed and I will leave her there, I just go in pet her and tell her how much I love her and thanking her for being a sweet kitty girl.

We have decided to let her be at home until the end, she never left her home while she lived with my Mom and she hates outdoors, won't even go out, we feel she feels safe and loved here with us. If she doesn't pass before the morning will be taking her to the vet and let her go.

I am blaming myself for not realizing she was having kidney issues with me having Xena having CRF I should have recognized the signs, the signs were there I just didn't pick up on them with us having so many animals sick and needing vet visit, I thought she was doing good....it is eating at me because I could have prevented her having to go through this so soon. luckily my Xena is doing well considering she has lost some weight.

So please pray for Kandi to pass peacefully and for me to get through this. I know our Mom is waiting for Kandi along with our Tallulah, but dang this is breaking my heart.

Peggy

 

Update on Kandi

April 9th 2015 4:19 pm
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I have to tell you I have tried making the dreaded call to make the appointment for Kandi to leave earth and make her journey several times, but something stopped me so I hung up. Night before last in the middle of the night I heard my Mom tell me to fight for Kandi and not give up so easily. Last night I felt her again, so this morning I got up and decided to give her more time and to not give up on her. I have been reading information on Tanya's CRF site and the more I have read I feel I have to give her a chance, one last chance before I take her to the vet. This all has happened so fast besides being in shock and can't believe she is ill.

We are giving her fluids several times, I have been giving her slippery elm because she isn't really pooping much and it will help her tummy as well, liquid amino with K & B. She is now eating without me syringe feeding her.

I know she doesn't have a lot of time, but as long as she is eating, alert, walking around some, her eyes are not dull, she doesn't seem to be in any pain I will keep trying, I just couldn't give up on her not yet and regret I didn't try.

Everything I have read Tanya has said that just because the vet says it is time to let her go doesn't always mean that is the right thing to do, I have to give her that chance, one last chance, she is giving me signs she wants to fight to stay here for now so I will fight too...I don't want to regret the decision I make especially because it is a final decision one I can't take back...I know you all understand how I am feeling, maybe you can give me some help to let me know if I am being fair to her or unfair...

Right now I feel at peace with giving her that last chance even if for a short time...I ask that you continue your purrs & prayers for Kandi I know her time here is not long she is doing OK and as long as she is eating on her own I will keep feeding her & fighting. The one thing I will not do is take her back to the vet so they can keep her there giving her fluids only for her to decline, too expensive for me now that I am on a fixed income. I know in my heart I will know that it is time to let her go as I did for Tallulah in the meantime I am spending time with her, giving her love and making sure she is doing OK....

I am sorry if any of you thought she had already made her journey, thank you for your gifts of love and support, we do need them it is just a matter of time I just don't think she will pull through but one just never knows.....she has one special angel helping her our Mom.

Hugs and love to you all

 

Kandi will be making her journey to the Rainbow Bridge

April 7th 2015 11:03 am
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Peggy here it is with a heavy and very sad heart that we will be letting Kandi make her journey to the rainbow bridge.

Our vet just called and her kidneys are failing and she won't get any better. We can take her to the vet hospital for them to give her fluids but the vet said more than likely she wouldn't get any better, I don't want her to suffer any more. So we will be making arrangements to let her go to be with our Mom in heaven.

We thank you all for you love and support during these last few days and for all of your prayers.

This will very hard for me and on me because this is the last link I have to my Mom, I know I have given her a good life these last few years and she has been happy, I am just glad I earned her trust and I have been able to give her lots of love and attention.

Kandi will always be in my heart and my special little kitty angel.

 

Update

April 6th 2015 8:19 pm
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Mom will give you update tomorrow after she gets test results. Mom didn't sleep much last night so she us going to bed.
We love u all and thank you for POTP and prayers.

Hugs
Kandi & Mom

 

Please purr for me

April 5th 2015 10:34 am
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I need your purrs & prayers, I am not doing well! I have lost weight and I am not eating much even with my pill to help me eat. Mom has notice I am very skinny & bony and when I do eat I am acting like I did when I had problems with my mouth in 2013. I had reobsorbtion of my teeth and a growth but it wasn't cancer.
I am going to the vet tomorrow morning so we are not sure what will happen.

Mom is so sad she comes in to be with me and she cries she told me she doesn't want me to suffer it is hard on her because I am her Moms kitty and to let me go is like letting go even more of the last bit she has of our Mom.

Mom hand feds me my food she made so it is almost liquid at least I eat a little Mom can tell it is hard for me to eat. She knows it is worse this time So my friends pray for me

Kandi and my Mom

 

Doing Fine

January 27th 2015 3:29 pm
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Hi catster friends,

I am here to tell you I am doing fine and love my new room here in the desert. I get to be out sometimes I just love running around and exploring hanging out on the other kitties cat trees looking outside.

Mom finally found a mobile groomer for me, she was beginning to think she would have to go 20 miles to take me to a groomer, but luckily for me she found one that comes to our area, but only once a month and Mom has to pay $15 extra for them to come groom me because we are so far out. They only do cats, no dogs like the other one did in San Diego. I have been groomed by them once and I will get groomed again in February. It is costing Mom more here to have me groomed but she has to do it so I don't get all matted like I was when my other Mom had me.

I am much happier here, more relaxed and most important I am friendlier to Mom, I let her pick me up all the time with no towel over me, she gives me lots of love which I so enjoy, I get lonely if she doesn't love me as I still can't be out with the others, still not getting along and I hate to doggies especially the littlest one.

Mom told me I am next to go to the new vet for my check up so she can get my refill of my medication to help me eat. She has to wait until Tu Two has her toofies cleaned.

Otherwise I am doing well and enjoying being here with my family and getting to sit at the window in my room basking in the sun.

Kandi

 
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