September 19th 2012 10:54 am
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This is Bella's Mommy, her very very sad person.
It's with both sadness and in some way,feeling guilt on my part, relief to let everyone know that a little while ago we had to help Bella to cross to the Bridge.
Last night Bella was not herself....she had been not well as she used to be for awhile, but this was more...she was very restless, walking around, looking, looking....'talking' at the window and in the corner of the end table to someone we could not see...but she could.
Then today she was hungry, was given fluids, ate a tiny bit, but kept looking for something more.
Nothing satisfied her. She paced and paced and paced. We gave her baby food, fresh deli roast beef and chicken, and she was not satisfied...she'd eat a little, then stop and look like 'what else do you have for me.....
and nothing was what she wanted. She she couldn't get comfortable...she went into the corner of the end table and stared and stared at the wall...and then was looking up and out at the window....Ruffy's Spot.
This morning CK licked the top of her head. My Clowder gathered around her.
This morning she was offered 5 different foods. She ate a few bites and left them. She was agitated. We came from the bedroom and she was sitting in the bathtub, staring at the side of it.
Husband took her to the vet, I went to work. I got the call soon after I got to work....
Dr. M, (little Vet) was in tears. She told us that she believed Bella's body was shutting down. She said she had lost a 1/2 lb. She was down to 4 1/2 lbs.
She said that she did not know what was happening, but she said that she bleieved it to be her body giving out. We talked for a very long time. We had the option of doing a blood work up on her, and seeing.....
but we looked...and we knew.....we did because as I watched her staring into the wall and pacing the room....
this was a cat who was always fastidious, who had ceased to groom, who loved to eat, and who had at her prime weighed 10lbs.
Dr. M. felt that to put her through more...it was up to us.
And we didn't.
Held in Daddy and Mommys arms, hugged by Rachel and Dr. M 'Aunt Tif' my girl left her body.
Oh, that I could tell you that I am ok...and I am. I will be. Bella leaves a legacy of love. She is heart of my heart.
It's so hard to know she won't be there to greet me, waiting for her supper.
As we waited for Dr M....the room grew very cold....husband said to me...it just got very cold in here.
In the corner manifested a lovely, lush and very sweet grey tabby, hazy around the edges, but with huge wings. She was so real that when Rachel came in she moved to the other side of the door.
She was there as she always is....and I'm glad she came, that she hasn't indeed left the comfort of her wonder and helping others...and comforting pawrents.
Thank you Angel Alex. Look after my baby girl, please, all the greats up there. I know you will. Please let me have a sign my girl is ok.
Baby, we miss you. Daddy and I miss you.
Thank you Alex.
And thank you whoever frisked with CK last night and this morning. You made us laugh and we needed that.
Gumpy...take care of my baby.
Mommy and Daddy
September 15th 2012 5:01 am
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Well, Daddy took me and guess what? I lost a 1/4 of a lb, which isn't good, but which Mommy can't understand because I am eating alot and always hungry. Ruffy is going to be so jealous though...The Vet said that I could have boiled chicken in my food. Mommy will try it, but I no longer get chicken cat food because I don't tolerate it...so not sure. My red blood cells are up, so that stuff I get in a shot every 3 days is working.
I am hanging in there..Mommy and Daddy wish I could up on some weight, but I'm skinny and tough. The other day I tumbled off the loveseat trying to get to the plate of food before it was put down. Mommy was scared, then laughed.
She is always wahing my face, she says I stick it right in my food to get to it and she is like 'Bella-take it easy'
But I'm hungry Mommy!!1
August 31st 2012 5:06 am
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Last night was bad.....but...Daddy came home with some cooked steak! And I was hungry and ate it!!! Daddy said I was calling to him, telling him to hurry up!!!
When Mommy came in this morning I was eating my FF beef food from last night. (she always makes sure I have an 'overnight' plate in case I get hungry.)
Thank you everyone for purring and sending me POTP. Mommy was sure that last night I was gazing out the window at my angels, and they were coming for me. Well, they did come, but they sprinkled fairy dust over me, healing powder, and told me to be well....
I know that there will come a time when I will leap the light fantastic and find that moon....
but not just yet.
I am going to nap now.
With many purrs,
Mom's note: I believe in Power of the Paw and purrs and prayer. She appeared better after an hour and a half last night. I didn't get to sleep til late and have to get ready for work, but Hubby is off today, will get her cerenia, and her azodyl.
She's skinny as a rail, but she is eating again.
thank you all so very very much....and she was watching out the window...she saw someone....wonder who it was. Whoever it was...thank you.
August 30th 2012 7:19 pm
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She probably just ate too much...but she isn't feeling well.
She is cold, and I have heating pads around her....
My heart is breaking...she seemed to be doing better.
purrs please for this fur child of my heart.
She has turned her face and is gazing out the window...Ruffy's window.
August 30th 2012 1:48 pm
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Thank you so much for the Power of the Paw and the purrs and prayers and candles! I am tough,a nd am taking my pills and shots and fluids, etc, like a good kitty girl, and eating very well.
I'm always a good girl, and I want to thank everyone for their kind words.
I'm still very very skinny, and always hungry. Mommy has been very tired, and hasn't been on Catster much the past week, as she went back to work and is back going to school also one night a week and all day Saturaday. Mommy got so Mad at Daddy yesterday, too...she came home to a parking ticket. Mommy told Daddy that they simply can't afford any tickets, and he has to find a place to park the new old car off the street. Daddy didn't know about the tickets-they never got put on the car or someone took them off. Apparently there were 2. Mommy yelled alot, but she's sighing now. She said that New York is a bad place to live with a car or without. But she has school to do before they can go anywhere.
I am holding my own, though I am very very skinny. Mommy said that when Big Vet gets back after Labor day, she will talk with her about me and if there is anything else we can do. Someone mentioned something...litzotinic or something? Does anyone else use it? Does it help with weight/vitamins? How is it on the tummy?
Gumpy, thank you and your mommy, too, and everyone, everyone here for being so kind and encouraging.
August 25th 2012 2:38 pm
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Mommy and Daddy bought me for my B12 today. I didn't want to go, had just gone to lay in the sunpatch. But Mommy put me in my carrier and took me down. However, I had to go, so left them a bit of a poopie in the carrier on the way.
When I got there they took me in the back. I have lost 1/2 and my anemia is worse, it's a 19 now. Little Vet is having me go in and go on a special shot on Monday, and I will be watched to see how I do on it. I will have to get it 3x a week.
I am also going onto Predisone. She is hoping that this helps whatever is going on with me in my innards, if it's IBD/pancretitis, or the 'big c'. It was that, or doing a endoscopy that might or might not show whats going on. Big Vet is on vacation, so we couldn't get her input.
Mommy is upset about this...because this is, as she see's it, something that means I have somehow reached a 'turning point'. I don't know why she's upset-as you know, we live in the moment. I am having meals, and naps and places to poop. I relax in the morning sun, or on my blankie or mommy's shirt when it's chilly.
Mommy wanted to speak with Big Vet-she has always been 'my vet' but Mommy and Daddy knew when they got called into the exam room, and were told 'We are worried about her' it was serious.
I am not upset at all...I love Mommy and Daddy. Life moves forward, and I have a good life, my good furs. I'm not afraid, for I've met angels, and know that when the time comes for me to leap up and outward, there will be those others who have gone before to catch me if my wings aren't yet there. Of course Mommy will miss me, and Daddy. And I them. But we each have our mission.
I am not in pain or uncomfortable. It's my lack of gaining weight despite my eating that is a constant worry.
Mommy's aunt met her a couple weeks in the vets office-I was in the back getting my shot. She told Mommy that she remembered me at least 2 years before Mommy got me. And Daddy and Mommy have known each other 15 years, and I remember when they got to know each other...and if I was a couple years old then....well, that makes me about 17 or 18, just like my pal Gumpy.
Please everyone, if you could let Mommy know that she will be ok...and so, my dear furs and friends, will I.
August 9th 2012 8:25 am
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I am feeling ok! Since I have had my fluids upped, I appear to be feeling much better. I am still a skinny minnie, but haven't thrown up much at all! I get my B12 shot this week. Mom and Dad and the vets have been playing phone tag about my test results, but so far I am doing well.
Yesterday wasn't my 'real' birthday...mommy doesn't know when that is. The birthday date was picked because it was an estimate by our first vet of when I might have been born. So we have them to thank for it. But everyone knows that our time runs different that humans, so maybe we could claim several birthdays a year?
Purrs to all,
August 5th 2012 10:40 am
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As you know, Mom and Dad have been worried about me. I have been losing weight, despite eating, though at times I'm fussy.
Well, they made an appointment for me today, as mom was concerned that I did not look too well.
Well, the nice vet that saw Natalie this week saw me. She made a fuss over me, as vets always do, though I, as Gumpy would say 'gave her lip'. She laughed and said to Daddy that so long as I had spirit I was a fighter, and that was good. She told Daddy I was dehydrated and to increase my fluids to 100mg a day. She gave them to me today, though i had some at 2am when Daddy came home.
Then she told Mommy that she wanted to run bloods, because she wanted to see how my kidneys were doing and what changes there were. Mommy said yes, though she asked what could be done if they were worse and the vet looked sad and shook her head. 'You're doing all you can do.' she said. She told Mommy that Mommy and Daddy were goood pawrents, and that as we kitties get 'up there' some of us have 'stuff' that is treated with preventative care, and Mommy was doing that. She said that KD was good for me, but few cats 'like that stuff' and she wasn't as concenred with me eating that sort of food as with me eating.
I got my nails cut too. I have 'old ladycat nails' that grow into little curved things and make it hard for mom to cut them properly, so she did. They also took pee. I don't know why-they like blood and pee there I guess.
I'm now resting by the window-my favorite spot. I had a treat of some fussiecat tuna and prawns in aspci and now am laying down. It's good to be home.
love to all.
August 1st 2012 9:02 am
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Yesterday she washed off my paws because I had gotten them dirty in the box. Today this morning the same. She looked at my ears...and they were dirty. She cleaned them, and will clean them again later.
For whatever reason, despite my B12, and eating, I am not looking so good the past couple days. It could be the weather-when it's humid and damp, I seem more stiff and sore. But she picked me up and I am so lite, despte the B12 and eating.
Daddy's going to call the vet today, I may get checked up again this weekend...becuase mommy worries, and I am her baby.
Mommy said to daddy it doesn't look as though I am grooming. She brushes me, and washes my face, and I seem to enjoy it. i love my family.
Mom feels sad. She wishes she could wave a wand and make me feel healthy and strong.
Do any of you, who are 'old furts' and are 'up there' have these issues?
Mom's afraid that the bridge is ahead, and doesn't want me to cross...
daddy says to mommy 'you can't think that way'.
Mommy and I have been together since somewhere in the 90s...she has forgotten when....
Mommy gets sad when she brushes me, but my coat looks greasy and clumpy.
July 23rd 2012 8:22 am
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There was a commontion very early this morning.
I went to use the box in the bathroom at 4am and the door was closed. There was a sound that was scary coming from in there.
Well, I couldn't get in, and the box in the hall was dirty.
I had no choice but to show my displeasure by leaving my poopies on the small blanket on the loveseat.
Mommy came in and saw the blankie was neatly folded over. She unfolded it and went 'uh on'.
She then took away the blanket and poopie and went to the bathroom and found the door closed! She said 'well, that explains it!' she went in and there in the middle of the floor in her carrier was NATALIE!
She was howling in a scary and very loud way.
Mommy grabbed the carrier and took it in the bedroom and opened it on the bed. She asked Daddy why Natalie was in there. he told her that becuase he couldn't feed her she had started to yell at him and poke him in the face and then stood on his head and was smacking his ear. He had to get up and take her to the vet at 8am, and it was only 4 and he wasn't getting any sleep, so he put her in the carrier in the bathroom. (she has a blankie in the carrier to sleep in-but she peed on it, so that was that).
She told Daddy that I couldn't get to my box and left a little something for him on the lovesseat. But she didn't give it to him-she put it in the trash.
The problem is that people don't understand we need to poop in our boxes-and Natalie was in there! What was I to do?
Moms note: Natalie has the vet's today to have her anal glands washed out. She wasn't to eat or drink after midnight, and was very insistant she be fed. My husband wasn't getting any sleep-and thinking she would settle down in her carrier, put her in the batrhoom in the carrier.
She was a bit better this morning once I let her out but we felt so bad when she could smell the other cats being fed but she couldn't eat.
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