September 23rd 2012 2:19 pm
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Dear Belle,
I miss you so much. I went to get your medicine ready this morning, and realized I didn't need to. I keep looking over at the loveseat. It was only yesterday Ruffy sat on your 'spot'.

We are moving this week-it's a weird feeling, we really wanted you to come with us. Something told me you woulndn't be making that trip.

I feel so guilty, could I have tried another medicine, should I have had blood work up done?

But I believe, though you could walk, and got around, with the not eating and the restlessness...and the going different places we hadn't seen you do before that you were ready.

There is a hole in my heart, for you were so much a part of my life. You were from my days at Humane, bittersweet days at a job I loved, a life I loved, that was taken from me. You were my first real 'my cat' and you and I belonged to each other. I knew when you curled up on Daddys lap you had accepted him, and you were letting me know that he was ok.

I miss you...I will always recall your deep little meow, your 'kitten dreams' and your way of looking at me when you wanted something.

You were so thin near the end...I imagine you now at the height of your beauty, your coat finally grown in and your lovely lovely gaze...

my love...

Momma loves you baby. Momma loves you

Purred by: Blizzard AKA The Catfather (Catster Member)

September 23rd 2012 at 3:51 pm

very nicely said.
keep writing your thoughts here, Bella's mommy....it does help

purrs of love from the catfather, and the taneytown crew

Purred by: Alex (sweet angel girl) (Catster Member)

September 23rd 2012 at 3:56 pm

I agree! Talking about it does so much for the healing process. It'll never take the pain completely away and you're really just at the beginning of this journey with so much going on. But we're here for you.