September 16th 2013 10:19 am
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The day has come for me to learn acceptance. Avail just had her fourth and final surgery today. The doctors believe that it has spread to her lymph nodes and there is nothing else that can be done. She had a massive tumor and part of the muscle in her shoulder removed today. She has to wear a draining tube for the next 3-4 days and her collar of shame for 10 days.
I never wanted to believe that it was even possible that Avail would not beat this horrible disease. If you even for a moment think that it's not important to spay early and do regular exams of your furbaby, then you are horribly wrong. I wish more than anything that I could have done more to prevent her from ever having to go through any of these surgeries.
This is one of the worst days of my life as Avail is like my child. Life is terribly unfair, so please, do whatever it is you can to help prevent something like this from happening to your furbabies. I've already lost my mom to cancer and now I'm losing her too.
Denial would be the defense mechanism that would normally turn on by now, but knowing how this is going to unfold makes acceptance the right choice for me.
Yes, this is hard.
Yes, this is painful.
Yes, this is devastating.
But yes, this is life.
I have to remember that I have given her all the chances in the world that she otherwise may have not had. I have seen her through so much in the 13 years that she has been in my life. I will see her through the rest of the life that she has here before I reluctantly let her go to the Rainbow Bridge.
I have loved you from the moment I laid eyes on you Avail. I have loved you every day that you have blessed me with in our life together. I will love you every day thereafter when you are no longer with me.
I love you so very much. Please know that. Everything I ever did, no matter how sad you were before and after surgeries, I did it for you. I gave up anything and everything to give you a chance at a longer happy life.
You have given me more love than I ever could have imagined. I am the luckiest furmommy in the world to have you as my baby.
I love you.
If you have it in your heart to help pay for this last surgery, we would all be so incredibly grateful. We can never thank you enough for supporting Avail's fight against feline mammary cancer.
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I'm so very, very sorry!!!! Big hugs and love being sent to you and your sweet kitty.
You did everything you could do fur her, she knows how much you love her. We sense those things. I'm so sorry you've had to go through this. Purring fur you, and you're sweet Avail.
Sending lotsa purrs.
Acceptance is not easy. Me and my mommy know. Avail can face anything with your love. You can face anything when your friends have your back. Right now we pray and purr for her to heal and feel better. To eat and to purr and for you to enjoy each others company.
With hugs and purrs,