December 26th 2011 5:19 am
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Time is passing by and each day, I still miss her but I know that her time was up......
I was taking some pictures and saw the ones that I took of her on her last day. She looked so
tired and uncomfortable. I knew it on that day but looking back, it all came to me again.
Loosing her was more difficult that I realize. You know in your heart that they are here for such a short time but you can get "greedy" and want more. She had no more to give. Alex is doing his best to fill her big role. She loved to cuddle as she got older. She would groom us too......
I feel bad for others who have lost their loved ones at the holidays. Everyone around is so happy and full of celebration. My sister in law's son passed in September and she will mourn him every day. He didn't live a full life. His family is having such a difficult time. He had young children. I am grateful for my children who are healthy and must remember the good times...Natasha was my sweet cat but she lived so long and gave so much...for that I am extremely grateful. She was an easy cat until the last two years. My grand daughter who is in the picture with Natasha wanted to know how and why Natasha got her wings. She understands and was so sympathic. Now, poor Alex is getting his exercise while she is here. He is good with her. He will get a play mate in the Spring....by then, things will calm down and our hearts can open again.
Now, to get more Zealies to give gifts......It is good to give and wish everyone to have a happy holiday.....Next year will be a better year and an exciting year of new experiences as each year is......I would never trade those years with Natasha and glad to have them.....Thank you Natasha for spending and choosing your life to be with us......Your family.....
December 11th 2011 7:18 am
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It has been a week since she was given her wings. It was a difficult week. The bedroom was so empty without her sweet face looking out from her place on the pillow. Alex has done his best to comfort his family. He has done well. He didn't give them a moment to think. Whenever they sat down, he would pounce on them. He was telling them to remember him and give him some TLC too. He went into the bedroom to look for her. He went around the house in case she was somewhere else. He has finally given up and relaxed.
The vet called on Wednesday to give us the news of her biopsy from the liver. She had told us that the cancer had spread all over the liver on Friday, December 2. The final news was that the cancer was metastic melanoma. Natasha's iris melanoma must have spread to her liver. Yesterday on her first week being at the Bridge, the vet called to tell us that Natasha could be picked up. I couldn't go there on Saturday for any reason. I will go soon but not a Saturday. It was too hard....I will get her soon. She left such a void here.....All of our plans were changed around her. Going into the supermaket to buy her any special foods that she will eat was an ongoing battle. I have so many different kinds of foods. Natasha had stage two kidney disease which never went high. I am glad that I didn't make her eat the kidney food as she hated it. Wellness food is the best here...She actually put some weight on after her eye surgery. She had a good summer. I left a summer picture on her site so others can see. She was happy in the summer. In September, she had an UTI. The vet commented that she had many. She recovered from it and was tested in November. Nothing showed up.
The vet told us that she would see Natasha in February. Three weeks went by and Natasha had to go back since she was drinking and peeing so much. It wasn't an UTI but her liver values.
It was with such great sadness that it was her time....After seventeen years, Natasha had to
leave for the Bridge. She was so tired at the end. We were there for her and held her paw.
She met Ben at the Bridge. Hopefully, the two of them are enjoying a meal together somewhere....it would be turkey for the both of them and whipped cream for her dessert.
In time, Alex will have a playmate so that he enjoys. He has been without a playmate since Natasha went into the bedroom for her senior years. It will take time for his family......Meanwhile, thank you everyone here for your support, gifts, and letters.
What an amazing group of people..thank you from us and Natasha, our sweetie and princess.....
December 3rd 2011 2:17 pm
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We arrived at the vet's and Natasha wasn't doing well at all. She had been peeing drinking all night and day long, every hour...Her system was shutting down so quickly. We couldn't have waited another day. She didn't eat today either. It has been some time since she ate all of her food.
My vet told me that Natasha wasn't a candidate for chemotherapy because of her present condition. I made the right choice. Waiting another day, Natasha would have died at home and with pain. I can't believe how close we came to changing the date. Thank you again to all of you who helped me throughout the night and day. We all stayed with her and she gave one growl out and then, she was out of pain......
Now to those who helped and supported Natasha and her family.......
Thank you for
the candles from the family of Drifter, Mouse, Purdie and Muffin
candles from Louis Armstrong, Emma Barrett, Benny and others
candles from the Family of Big Harry, Patches, Angel Abigail, and Zack
candle from Ashlynne- Natasha's close friend
candle from Angel Taffy....we are now together...
Wings from the family of Kikie, Jack and Kosuteh
Wings from the Family of Blizzard, AKA the Catfather, Squeaker, Sock, and all
Heart from the Family of Luke, Tully, Sammy, and Natasha....another Natasha...
Heart from Natalie the NatCat- fellow orange female clan....
Heart from Kitty Pryde...and all those notes and letters of encouragement, thanks
Heart from Sky
Heart from Simone, River, Samantha, and more
Heart from Mietzi Katze
Rose from Nala Sue ( Angel) Hello friend at the Bridge
Rainbow from the Family of Harvey, leila, Spike
Rainbow from Chibi
Rainbow from the Family of Mia, Milo, Xena Princess, Warrior, Queen Tallulah, and others
Large Power of the Paw from Brantley...thank you so much
Large Power of the Paw from Shade
power of the paw from Natalie and more....thanks for everything that you do...
power of the paw from Patch, Abbi, Perdita, Bobcat and more
power of the paw from Boxie Brown...You are one special friend too...in everything you do here.
power of the paw from Family of Timmy Tomcat, Toby Tomcat, Buddy, Inky, and RIP Little Man
Star from Tink and Snow
Star- Bella, Orange, Ruffy, and Smoke boss
The family appreciate all of the letters, notes of sympathy from both close friends and new friends. Lacey and Finney's mom who helped with support and sympathy. She does so much for those in need. I do apologize if I missed anyone. Your generousity was appreciated. When she passed, I felt her burden of pain pass away. She will be coming home in ten days and join Ben.
Indy's mom helped as well to have a gathering for us....and Kaci's mom...what an amazing group you all are.....Ashlynne, thank you for letting me know that Natasha's situation with the eye helped...Natalie, you are super too...
This night will be a difficult one but not as bad as the last week's. Knowing that she would have not made it through the night helps.....no running or calling someone. She had all of her loved ones there and the vet who knew her....at the Boston Cat Hospital....
She will write later to express her gratitude to all of her friends....One day soon, she will get
wings on one of her pictures....and I will add Ben's picture to her site so you can see her guardian angel......Thank you again all of my and Natasha'a friends...and Catster who created this site......May all of your cats live a long life like Natasha and have good friends like you....
Sharon, still owned by Angel Natasha, Guardian Angel Ben, and Alex.....Thank you to all...
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