August 3rd 2012 11:04 pm
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I have been aware of this day approaching for a few weeks now. I celebrated your "Gotcha Day" last week...just like I always have. I woke up yesterday, and I cried for you....with sincerity... I have been blocking out the pain and emptiness for so so long. I can't believe 3 years have passed since you went away....it still hurts like it was yesterday. I dream of you often, and I look to the stars and pray for you quite frequently. Ever since the 4th of July of 2009, just weeks before you had to go, I have been watching these beautiful Chinese Lanterns float by....Every year I go outside and sit and wait....and every year since then , I have seen them go by. I make a wish and say a prayer as each one passes.
Things are so different now, yet still the same. We had each other for such a short time, yet it feels as though I had you forever. I miss you, I miss Catster, I miss the friends I made because of you.... However, time goes on. Writing to you was the only thing I could do, and it helped me to deal with our loss... I will never understand why we had such a bond, and why I had to lose you so soon. It hurts me so much to think about you, and how sad you were those last few weeks. My little Angel, you were so smart...you knew that you were sick...I could see it in your eyes. I could feel it in your breath...What a lady...you fought as hard as you could, and you held on as long as you were able. I would have done anything if I could have saved you, but there wasn't anything I could do. Amazing how one little sweet cat can come along and change a person forever...I feel as though you were given to me from God for a reason. I pray you are out there somewhere, happy and safe, yet aware of my love for you and how much you meant to me. I have been going through a lot of difficult times since you left, and I know you are aware. It's because of you that I am able to keep fighting...trying hard to move forward. Yes, you...my little girl, taught me so much about life, love, acceptance, and what matters. I wish that I could hold you...just for a second...right now...I miss you so much...I know if I saw you I wouldn't want to let go....I would only pray for more...but if I could have that chance...that one embrace...to know you are okay....then I would cry and cry...yet I would be happy...comforted...knowing that your spirit lives on...knowing that I WILL see you again one day...and we will never again be apart....My heart feels you close....I love you more than words can say...I miss you, Ava, I really do...Please watch over me...especially Andy...and all of the other furs. Deep inside, I know Andy remembers you, and always will. One day, we will all be together again...I pray...I hope....Believing that makes life worth living. Thank you for coming into my life, and making me understand what love really is....Miss you forever....Kisses and Squishes....Mommy
I know she's watching over you right now.
Dear Ava's Mom,
I wanted you to know that Ava is with you always. She may be closer than you know.
Mommy believes that there are special cats who journey to their soul person, and teach and learn and have a bond.
It's so difficult to lose your 'soul friend', or to feel you have. Yet, to us, there is no 'death'. we don't stop, we take a running leap from a form that we leave behind, we take our souls with us, we are, we soar and you know....we do come back to find you again.
I remember another life somewhere....turning, looking over my shoulder at a small siamese with the bluest eyes..and knowing she was, tail held high...on her way home.
Now, as I listen to your heart felt lament, dear one, I know one thing for sure...those blue eyes will remanifest in another form, to gaze at you once more...and you will Know.
For, my human friend, we are creatures of the most fey and elusive magick.
And love is our common color
love and light,
Ava is forever loved; loves you forever and she is so grateful that she and you were blessed with eachother.
Ava's mommy. I feel the same way about my Alfie as you about your precious Ava. I can barely see the screen to type and there are others here more eloquent than I. As usual Ruffy is very poetic and wise..We love you here. You are a catster mom!
Sweetest Ava let's fly to your MamaCat and sprinkle Rainbow dust on her so she will know you are healthy and happy here at the Bridge...
Then let's fly back to the Angel Inn where we still have lots of your GotCha Day cake! We left Alfie in charge! MOL!
soft angel huggs... Raincloud ♥
Dearest Ava & Mom, you'll always have those
speshill starsRainbow Stars Shining! Shining Bright wherever you go!
Love is 4 – eva!
Purrs & ♥luvs♥,
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Yes Ava is always with you as I am with my Mom...I think our Moms feel the same way, the hurt and emptiness never goes away....Ava knows how you feel and she knows you love her, she came in your life for a reason and she did help you in so many ways and she still is...
You all are in our thoughts and prayers!
Sending you angel love, hugs and butterflies from heaven...
QT and Mom
purrrs of comfort to you -
we are here for you and your momma.
Aryeh and family