one week ago...Miss u Augie

There's a little black cat...who lives outside my place of work. I watch this cat, from my window, occasionally hunting and catching his prey. I admire that cat, for being on his own, and yet finding the strength, courage, and willingness to survive on his own. I often think about that cat...wonder if I had spotted him as a kitten, if I could have "saved" him. Yet, now that he is grown, I know tha...t the chances of him adapting to a domestic life are slim. I take comfort on those days when I see him taking control of his own life...making it into what he knows as a good life. After all, that's all he does know...how to survive...the instinct is innate...

Yet today, as I left work, after another long and exhausting day...I stopped just before the door. I looked outside, saw the tiny raindrops beginning to fall...the darkness slowly overcoming the light, and the cool breeze coming through the doors. I then pulled my hood over my head, and reached into my purse for my keys. As I made the walk to my car, I was surrounded by silence...and a strange yearning to know where the cat was...if he was okay. I then began to wonder what winter would be like for this cat...alone...on his own...in that large empty field. Suddenly, I stopped. Something made me look out to the field. There, over 100 yards away, was the black cat. Sitting on top of a fence. In the cold rain.

I wanted to go to him, yet I knew from experience that it was no use. I felt sad as I was about to enter my warm and dry car. Then, to my surprise, I noticed the cat was moving. Yes, in the cold rain, he was walking along the top rails of the fence. So gracefully, so full of confidence. Oblivious to the cold, the rain, the darkness surrounding him. He had a will, a will to survive. To carry on with his day, his life...to move forward with out fear or hesitance. It was in this moment that I, too, realized what was possible. That I, like that cat, can keep moving forward, on my own. I too, like that cat, would survive.

Augie is now an Angel...

Mommy is in shock...she can't write...but she took Augie to the vet...it was the best decision to help him make his journey...

It's been so long...We miss you all

Mommy has been having a bad year. Everything is going wrong...and it just keeps getting worse. Please say a purrayer for her...and send some Purrs for Augie, my Dog brofur. He has been suffering from Cushing's Disease for just over a year now. He's very frail...but he's been eating and acting pretty good. He has his bad days; However, he has more good than bad.

UNTIL this weekend. He won't eat his kibble...not since Friday. Last night and all day today, he won't drink his water. He doesn't want to stand up, but he can when forced. He just seems very lethargic, weak, sad...Mommy has tried giving him water and chicken broth with a dropper, but it's not enough. He did eat a hamburger at noon because Mommy wanted him to eat SOMETHING...She doesn't have any money to take him to the vet...so please purr that he gets through this somehow. It's going to be a long night. Kisses to you all, Angel Ava

2 years without you...

My dear Ava....I can't believe it's been 2 years...I still can't let you go...I miss you so much. I know you are near...I know you see my tears...feel my sadness...I hope you don't get sad too. I am so glad you were a part of my life. I know that I was your REAL Mommy...even though your first 8 years are a mystery. I would give anything to hold you again...to feel your soft fur...your sweet kisses. You were the best hugger! You held on so tight, and gave kisses at the same time. I always knew you had a special soul. Please don't be sad...Mommy will be ok. I know things are falling apart here...but I will find a way out of this mess...No one will take our home from us. I will do whatever it takes to stay here...keep the others safe...and nurture your garden for as long as I can. Please continue to fly free...and I will see you again...I know I will. Love you and miss you, little girl...Forever and always...with all my heart...Love and Kisses, Mommy

Dear Ava...on your Birthday

Dear Ava,

I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since I had to let you go. 4 years ago today, I brought home the most beautiful precious girl I have ever known. You were so happy...you came right of the carrier and immediately greeted the entire family. No separating you...you were home...forever. I just wish your "forever" could have been for more than 2 years. I miss you today as much as I ever have. The pain never lessens, the memories never fade. I dreamed of you last nite. I know you are still with me...and will forever be. Happy Birthday/Gotcha day...I hope you are flying free...and I hope you are thinking of me too. Forever in my heart. Love you always, Mommy

Wow..I am a DDP!

Mommy is so happy! It's been a while since she's had time to play on Catster like she used to. Imagine her surprise this morning when she saw I was picked as a DDP! It's been really nice reading all of the comments and rosettes. Mommy misses you all so much! She will help me send out Thank You's later....Kisses and Squishes, Ava

Purrs and Prayers answered!

This is from Andy's diary! Thank you all for your support...and to all of the Angel Kitties who watched over my Andy with me! Kisses, Ava

From Andy:
Yes...it's true! Mommy got the call today! My lump on my leg is a fatty lipoma...NOT cancer! I am gonna be ok! She cried so hard...she was so happy...she NEVER gets good news! Thank you all for your purrs of support! We love you so much! Love, Andy and Mommy Karen

My Andy is home from the VET!

From Andy's Diary...

Well, I made it thru the dental...THANK you all for the purrs! They work! Now we must wait for the biopsy results from the lump on my leg...but my VET says she doesn't seem too worried because it was in my skin only...not my other parts like muscle and bone, etc. So, keep the purrs coming please till we know for sure! Love you all! Mommy will give more details soon! Love, Andy

Thank you for your purrs and support! Kisses, Ava

Please send some purrs for my Andy...

Can I get some purrs for my Andy? He is scheduled for a dental and to have a lump removed from his leg on Tuesday, April 26...Mommy is so worried....I will be watching over my love Andy....Thank you, Kisses, Ava

There's another Star shining in the sky....

Today is a sad day...Mommy's brother's dog, Molly..a most beautiful beagle.....has now gone to join the Angels. She lived 14 long wonderful years.....Mommy knew her time was coming...but didn't know it would be this morning. She wishes she could have said goodbye. However, poor Molly had been having some trouble for a few months...and last night her leg filled up with fluid...she cried a lot....so her parents took her to the vet as soon as it opened....and they helped her cross over peacefully. The vet believes bladder cancer is what she had. Little princess Molly....adopted as a puppy 14 years ago. The Heaven's will be brighter tonight, for her star shall be the brightest. God bless you Molly....may you live in peace at the Bridge....you are now with Liberty...the 2 most beautiful beagles ever are together again....run free girls....run free....

Molly Bear February 2nd, 1997 - April 2nd, 2011
You will be sadly missed...but never forgotten