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Missy's Diary

My beautiful Angel

Im so lonely without my baby. I had to put her down on friday june 10th. Was the worst day of my life. I never want to have to do something like that again. It killed me to have to do it. I was crying all night and the day after and I havent stopped thinking about her. I keep hoping im going to come home and see her and that this was just a nightmare. I know I had to do it because I know she was in alot of pain. I hadn't heard her meow or purr in over two weeks. She couldnt sit in her litter box without falling out of it. I cant help but think if i did it too soon? I hope i didnt i thought she was in pain. I miss my angel so much. She was only a baby she was only 8 months old. I miss her so much. Baby I love you and havent stopped thinking about you. Wish you were here with me now I miss you! Love you my babies!

Love you,
Mommy

last life

Today my mommy took off work which she never does so i dont think this is good news! Shes been holding me all day and kissing me and telling me its going to be ok. Every night I hear her pray that I'll be ok. She hasn't been herself last night or today. Shes been crying all day. So i think this is my last few hours with my mommy. I love her so much and Im in pain I cant even really go to the bathroom anymore I cant sit in the litter box without falling out of it. Mommy tells me every morning when she leaves for work that she will be home around 12 which she does everyday and then tells me when she comes home i better be better and running at the door. but i cant anymore im too weak. mommy is hoping for a miracle because she has been dreading this day for days now. so i think this is my last couple of hours with my mama so im gonna spend them with her holding me and loving me. Thank you everyone for all your support and help!!

Missy
meow!

FIP

My name is Missy but mommy always calls me baby! Im a very cute and adorable maine coon kitten if i say so myself. Im 8 months old. Exactly one week ago last monday june 29 2009. I got sick! I felt like i drank a whole bottle of vodka by myself whatever vodka is mommy and daddy keep saying thats what i look like when i walk. I cant walk straight matter of fact its hard to stand up sometimes. So mommy took me to the vet 1st thing tuesday morning. I hated my mommy that day, they stuck me with a bunch of needles and took blood from me then they put some fluid in me. So then they gave my mommy some medicine for me. Which she gives me twice a day. My mommy has been very worried about me. She has been coming home on her lunch break everyday to come and see me. She doesnt leave my side. Well my mommy was crying all day last thursday she found out that i have FIP. Once mommy heard that shes been a mess. She hasnt stopped crying. I love my mommy i wish i could stop her crying. I havent been able to jump on the bed or the couches to cuddle with her so my mommy is so sweet she made herself a bed on the floor and been sleeping with me on the floor every night just me her my food and litter box. I think daddy is jealous because shes sleeping with me and not in the bed with him. I have no energy so its good that my mommy put my potty and food in the room with us. I spend my days laying on the floor and sleeping all day. The doctor gave my mommy new medicine that i dont like at all. I refuse to take them. Daddy has to hold me down while mommy crushes up the pills and put its in water and squirts it into my mouth. Daddy gets mad at her cuz i dont like it and i stratch him. hehehe. but its soo yuckyy!! I wish I could get better and play with mommy and daddy but i just dont have any energy in me anymore. Mommy talks about how she doesn't want me to leave her and how she loves me soo much and how she wants me to fight this. Im trying but i dont know if i can. Im trying and i dont want to hurt my mommy. I dont like to see her cry. I love when she cuddles me. she cuddles me every morning and night. She cant stop crying daddy gets mad at her for that too, but its my fault, Im sick. Mommy keeps telling me its not my fault its the lady who had me befores fault. Im sorry mommy im sick. Im sorry mommy I cant walk straight. Im sorry mommy i love you and I know you love me very much. I know your doing everything possiable for me to try to get better. Thank you mommy for everything. - Missy I meow you!


I love you my baby. I dont want to see you go! your just a baby your only 8 months old. I dont want you to suffer. I dont like watching you walk its soo painful. I know your gonna go to a safe place. I wish you could fight this, and stay with me. I would like you to see your 1st birthday and 2nd and 3rd. I love you so much baby and I hope you get better. I know its not your fault. I would never of expected this. But baby im gonna be by your side to the very end. Im praying for a miracle. I love you my babies! - Mommy!